Only you had to produce.
And be one step ahead of the competition.
And, fuck, there was a lot of competition out there.
The capital-I Internet. What a place. So much money, so many chances for breathtaking success. And for bottomless fuck-ups.
The thirty-two-year-old, with a voluptuous figure, ornery brown and purple hair and big doey Japanese anime dark eyes, sipped more white wine and tried to focus past a particularly difficult meeting with her boss not long ago, a meeting that had floated in her thoughts ever since.
Put. It. Away.
Finally, she managed to. Spearing and eating a wedge of fried green tomato topped with ground anchovies, she turned her attention back to her friends. Smiling, all of them (except Text Girl), as Raoul - her roommate, yes, just a roommate - was telling a story about her. He was an assistant to a fashion photog who shot for Vogue-wannabe mags, all online. The slim, bearded boss had come to pick up Raoul in the apartment they shared in Chelsea and he'd looked over Samantha's T-shirt and PJ bottoms, sprouting hair tamed with mismatched rubber bands and very, very serious glasses. 'Hmmmm. Can I shoot you?'
'Oh, you're the one got the contract for the Geek Girl calendar?' Samantha had offered. Raoul now gave his delivery a little extra oomph and the table roared.
This was a good group. Raoul and James - his best bud - and Louise from Samantha's office and Some Other Woman, who'd arrived on James's arm. Was her name Katrina or Katharine or Karina? Jamie's blonde of the week. Samantha had dubbed her Text Girl.
The men continued their discussion of politics, as if they had money on the outcome of the election, Louise was now trying to discuss something serious with Samantha and the K woman texted some more.
'Be back,' Samantha said.
She rose and started along the antique floor, which was - after the three glasses of anti-stress wine - not as even as it had been when she'd arrived. Easy, girl. You can drink-fall in the Hamptons, you can drink-fall in Cape May. You don't drink-fall in Manhattan.
Two flirts from the tiny bar. She ignored them, though she ignored one less stridently than the other. It was the fellow sitting by himself at the end. He was a slim guy, pale - only-goes-out-at-night kind of skin. Painter or sculptor or some other artist, she guessed. Handsome, though there might be a weak-chin factor if he looked down. Piercing eyes. They offered one of those glances. Samantha called them 'laps', as in a dog lapping up food.
She got a chill. Because the look went on a little too long and then got scary.
He was undressing her, looking over her body.
She regretted tapping his eyes with hers. And continued quickly to the most challenging route the restaurant offered: the narrow stairway down to the restrooms in the basement.
Clunk, clunk ...
She made it.
Dark and quiet down here, clean, which had surprised her the first time she'd come to the place. The people who'd renovated had spent plenty of time making the dining rooms rough-edged rustic (yeah, we get it: French and American countryside), but the bathrooms were pure SoHo. Slate, recessed lighting, ornamental grasses for decoration. Mapplethorpe on the walls but nothing too weird. No whips, no butts.
Samantha walked to the W, tried the door.
Locked. She grimaced. Provence2 wasn't big but no fucking restaurant in the world should have a single-occupancy women's room. Were the owners crazy?
Creaks overhead, from footsteps on the sprung wood flooring. Muted voices.
Thinking of the man at the bar.
What was I doing, looking back at him like that? Jesus. Be a little smarter. Okay? Why flirt? You've got Elliott from work. He isn't a dream boy but he's decent and dependable and watches PBS. Next time he asks, say yes. He has those sweet eyes and he's probably even pretty decent in bed.
Come on, I've gotta pee. One damn restroom?
Then, with a different pitch of creak, footsteps were coming down the stairs.
Clunk, clunk ...
Samantha's heart thudded. She knew it was the flirter, the dangerous one.
She saw boots appearing on the steps. Men's ankle boots. Out of the '70s. Weird.
Her head swiveled. She was at the far end of the corridor. Nowhere to go from here. No exits. What do I do if he rushes me? The decibel level in the restaurant itself was piercing; nobody would hear. I left my cell phone upstairs, I -