Her heart sank. Somebody else, please. Have somebody else do it. She said, "Not until the ME's finished. That's the rule."
"No rules today, Amelia. We're making up our own. The medical examiner'll get her after us."
Sachs approached the woman.
"You know the routine?"
"Yes." She stepped close to the destroyed body.
Then froze. Hands inches from the victim's skin.
I can't do it. She shuddered. Told herself to keep going. But she couldn't; the muscles weren't responding.
"Sachs? You there?"
She couldn't answer.
I can't do this. . . . It was as simple as that. Impossible. I can't.
"Sachs?"
And then she looked into herself and, somehow, saw her father, in uniform, stooping low on the hot, pitted sidewalk of West Forty-second Street, sliding his arm around a scabby drunk to help him home. Then was seeing her Nick as he laughed and drank beer in a Bronx tavern with a hijacker who'd kill him in a second if he knew the young cop was working undercover. The two men in her life, doing what they had to do.
"Amelia?"
These two images bobbed in her thoughts, and why they calmed her, or where that calm came from, she couldn't begin to guess. "I'm here," she said to Lincoln Rhyme and went about her business as she'd been taught. Taking the nail scrapings, combing the hair--pubic and head. Telling Rhyme what she did as she did it.
Ignoring the dull orbs of eyes . . .
Ignoring the crimson flesh.
Trying to ignore the smell.
"Get her clothing," Rhyme said. "Cut off everything. Put a sheet of newsprint under them first to pick up any trace that falls off."
"Should I check the pockets?"
"No, we'll do that here. Wrap them up in the paper."
Sachs cut the blouse and skirt off, the panties. She reached out for what she thought was the woman's bra, dangling from her chest. It felt curious, disintegrating in her fingers. Then, like a slap she realized what she held and she gave a short scream. It wasn't cloth, it was skin.
"Amelia? Are you all right?"
"Yes!" she gasped. "I'm fine."
"Describe the restraints."
"Duct tape for the gag, two inches wide. Standard-issue cuffs for hands, clothesline for the feet."
"PoliLight her body. He might've touched her with his bare hands. Look for prints."
She did. "Nothing."
"Okay. Now cut the clothesline--but not through the knot. Bag it. In plastic."
Sachs did. Then Rhyme said, "We need the cuffs."
"Okay. I've got a cuff key."