I had to remember what it was I was here for. Though a part of me was confused as to why I was still doing this. It was just torturing myself, continuing to see him when I’d decided to forget all about him, but like always, it wasn’t easy for me to refuse him anything.
“How often do you look after Danny? The one I saw you with last time unless you have other clients already…”
“No, I currently only have the one.”
He nodded. “Well, Wendy needs someone to look after my little cousin for a couple of days a week. Like I told you before, she doesn’t get a lot of time to herself, and she doesn’t have someone trustworthy to look after him while she’s out. So she hasn’t been going out much, but she’s getting busy with something.”
I nodded along. I was kind of curious about how Wendy was doing, and her little boy. With the way Joshua had been holding him so close to his chest last time, all swaddled in blankets; I hadn't seen him.
“I could do that much,” I said with a shrug. I will need the days specified, though, so I can plan around it.”
“Of course,” he said quickly. “And where is Danny?”
“He’s with my parents.”
The answer was automatic, but a second later, my back stiffened.
“No,” I said quickly. “I meant Danny is with his parents.”
Crap.
How could I have made a mistake like that? It was because I was so damn relaxed around Joshua, as always. I had forgotten again that things had changed. We weren’t together, and I was keeping a huge secret from him.
I noticed Joshua looking at me suspiciously, and decided it was time to cut off the meeting.
“Um, I need to head out now, I still have my job to do,” I said quickly. “Since you already know my number, you can just give it to Wendy and have her call me, okay?”
He opened his mouth, but no words came out.
I had been drinking my coffee and taking out bites of the cake as we talked. I ate the last bit, downed the last of the coffee, and hurriedly got up.
“Thanks for treating me to coffee,” I said, running away.
I got outside when I remembered I hadn't paid for my share, then shoved the thought aside. He was the owner of a huge company. He could afford to pay the bill. A small price to pay for breaking my heart.
Chapter Four
Alessandra
“Are you sure you have everything, honey?”
I looked at mom and smiled. “Of course I’ve got everything. I’m not a kid anymore to still be so forgetful.”
She chuckled. “You keep telling yourself that. And don’t worry, I’ll look after my grandson just fine, so you don’t need to worry. Just let me know when you’re finished, and I can expect you home, okay?”
“Okay, Mom. I’ll see you later. You too, baby.”
I waved my fingers at both my mom and my son. Then, I turned around and left the house.
She had no idea where I was going. I hadn't told Dad either, but he was off at work, so that was less of a problem.
They both knew exactly who the father of their grandson was. And while I hadn't explained much about what happened between Joshua, and me I knew they weren’t exactly happy with the decision to not tell him about his son. I hadn't told them about meeting him yet, or who I was going out to achieve. They just thought I was going out to meet a friend, and they both thought it was about time I started going back into the world.
Sorry, Mom, I silently apologized as I closed the front door behind me.
I had no intention of letting them in on this just yet. I wasn't exactly smart, to begin with, I was going with the flow while doing the exact opposite of what I thought I should do.
My phone vibrated before I’d gone too far, and I pulled my phone out of my purse. I unlocked it and checked the message.