He pointed to the second door in the room. I looked around, then set my purse down on the nightstand. I walked quickly over to the bathroom, found the light switch, and closed the door behind me.
I didn’t need to use the bathroom. I just needed time to calm myself down and be sure this was what I wanted. Joshua wouldn’t be annoyed with me if I still said no. He would be disappointed, but he wouldn’t hold it against me. I moved to the sink and washed my hands, then took several deep breaths.
When I was sure, I stepped out.
Joshua was sitting on the bed. He had shed his blazer, and he was leaning forward with his elbows resting on his knees. When I closed the door to the bathroom, he looked up. Then, he sat up and leaned back with his hands on the bed, keeping his eyes on me.
I figured he was waiting for me to make the next move.
“Just a little bit more,” I murmured.
When I left home this morning, I hadn't specified to Mom whether I would be going back home tonight or not, which at least meant that I had been looking forward to something like this. I moved over to the nightstand and pulled my phone from my purse to send a quick text home to let them know I wouldn’t be back and to look after Danny.
Then, I set my phone on the nightstand and turned back to Joshua.
He arched an eyebrow when he noticed me watching him, and bent his eyebrows.
“Are you ready now?”
“Yeah,” I whispered.
I moved slowly over to him. I hesitated, before kicking off my shoes. I held onto his shoulders as I climbed to straddle his lap.
“I’m all yours now,” I said. “Just…can you not touch my chest too much? I’m a little sensitive.”
His eyebrows went up curiously. My heart thudded in my chest, but he didn’t say anything. I felt his hands slide over my waist, and I sighed.
“It’s fine with me,” he murmured, eyes dropping to my lips.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and closed the space between us to kiss him. Joshua nibbled at my lips, and I parted my mouth, licking at his mouth until he let me in.
His hands roamed all over my back, sliding up to my shoulder blades, then down until his palms cupped my ass cheeks, then back up. His fingers caught the zipper of my dress and tugged it down. I didn’t want to pull away, but the urgency from before in the limo was quickly building inside me. I moved away, just long enough to lift the dress off me and tossed it over my shoulder.
Joshua looked at my body, and I sat back on his thighs to let him. I chewed on my lip, wondering if I had changed a lot. My body had been pretty big six months ago before I gave birth, and I’d been doing a lot of exercises to get back the body I used to have. A lot of the extra weight from the pregnancy dropped easily, though I was always a little self-conscious about my lower stomach area.
He didn’t seem to find anything wrong, though.
“Beautiful,” he murmured. His hands were on my waist, then rose up, so his thumbs just touched the underside of my bra. “I did miss seeing you, Alessandra.”
/> “I missed you, too,” I admitted.
He smiled. Then, with his hands, he tugged the straps of my bra down. I pushed down the anxiety and let him unhook my bra, then I slid it off and sent it the way of my dress. His hands back on my waist, he stared, right at my breasts. When he leaned forward, I held my breath, but he only kissed the top of each breast before pulling away.
“Hold onto me,” he commanded.
I did as he asked, holding on tightly. He rose up, and I wrapped my legs around his hips. He turned us around, then crawled up onto the bed on his knees, and carefully laid us down, with him on top of me.
“I’m going to fuck you, Alessandra. Is that okay?”
I flicked him on the shoulder. “You don’t have to ask about every little thing.”
Still, I was smiling, happy with my decision to stay.
Joshua pulled back and slowly started to undress. I watched as he undid the buttons of his shirt and slipped it off. Then, his hands moved to his belt, his fly. The breath caught in my throat as he slowly revealed himself, eyes dropping to his erection once he had his pants off. I tingled a little between my legs. Feeling my mouth water, I leaned forward and wrapped my hand around his length.
He groaned. “If you do that, I’m going to come. I haven’t done this in a long while.”
I sent him a challenging glance. “Neither have I.”