Everything in me wants to hold on to him as he takes a step backward.
He stares at Cillian and I’m hesitant to look back and see his expression. I expect anger from Reed holding onto me like that. Maybe even toward myself for getting between them. I expect a lot of things, but when I turn around, Cill is right there, reaching around to pull Reed in. I’m caught there, between them both, as Cill pats Reed’s back with firm slaps.
“I’m right here, brother.”
“Don’t fucking go back, man. Don’t fucking leave us again.”
As I slip away from their embrace, the two men hug it out, neither willing to let go. “We have each other,” Reed says and emphasizes, “that’s enough.”
Cillian’s silent and I’m not certain he’s convinced.
“Can we just wait to do anything?” I offer again. “We have time, don’t we?”
The two men look over at me before they each take a step back, emotion riddled in their lost expressions. My two broken and lost men. “We have each other, that’s what matters,” I tell them.
Cillian looks between the two of us, swallowing thickly. “How exactly is that?” he questions and a chill sweeps down my back.
“What do you mean?” Reed questions in a single breath even though both of us know what he means. There’s love between us all, and I can’t deny that I feel more love for Reed than I should.
“I mean … the two of you … If I wasn’t here, you’d be with her, wouldn’t you?”
“No, the club isn’t safe–”
“If it was safe,” Cill says and inside I’m screaming for Reed to let it go. I love him, but he knows I’ll always be Cill’s. I can’t lose him as a friend, though. Neither can Reed. We need each other. It’s as simple as that.
Instead, he says the worst thing he could.
“Yeah.” He swallows, his hands slipping into his pockets, as if signaling he doesn’t want to fight, or maybe that he’s willing to take the punch without punching back. “If you weren’t here and it was safe, I’d be with her. Of course I would.”
Thump, my heart races and a heat engulfs me.
“And you would too,” Cill states softly, without judgment as he glances at me.
“But you are here,” I say and the words are pleading as they pour out. I can’t lose him. Please, no.
“I know I am, Hellcat. I’m not going anywhere,” he tells me as I rush into him, my hands fisting his tee. He chuckles. The bastard chuckles a genuine laugh as he looks down at me, smoothing over my hair before kissing my temple.
I’ve never felt such confusion.
“The thing is,” he whispers at my temple, his warm breath slipping down my shoulder, “Reed still wants to fuck you and you want him too.” He keeps me close to him and before I can object, Reed agrees.
As I turn to face him, breathless, Reed is standing closer than before, only inches behind me now. “I never stopped wanting you and I never will, Kat.”
Cill kisses the side of my neck, stealing my attention back. “What do you say, Hellcat? You want to be shared?”
Cillian
* * *
Kat keeps looking back at me like this can’t be real. Every time her wide hazel eyes search mine, I kiss her harder, wanting that look of uncertainty to vanish.
The moment the three of us are inside her bedroom, I kick the door shut and tell her to strip. I’m the first to make a move, pulling my shirt over my shoulders and letting it fall to the floor.
Kat stares back but I don't have to ask her twice.
Her sleep shirt falls to the floor easily enough and she shimmies her thin lace panties down to the floor. Leaving her completely bared to us, her rosebud nipples peaked and her hair cascading around her shoulders.
Her wide eyes dart between the two of us, her shoulders rising and falling with each heavy breath. The flush in her cheeks and her hardened nipples prove she’s turned on, even if nervousness clings to her.
“How do you want me?”
“On your knees, Hellcat.”
I help her get into position exactly how I want her. On the edge of the bed, her mouth facing Reed who’s still standing there, his shirt removed but his pants still on. I’m the first to drop my pants, palming my cock and stroking it once.
The bed groans as I climb up behind her. I’m vaguely aware that Reed has hardly moved. If he wants her, if wants to keep loving her like I know he does, this is the only way he’s going to get her.
“You taking her pussy?” he finally asks lowly, just above a breath.
I only nod, knowing damn well I want her coming on my cock and I’ll be coming inside of her. I get her first. She’s mine, after all. I’m only sharing.