"She collapsed and he had to help her to bed.
She refused to go to a doctor even though she kept
bleeding. My father made it sound as if she wanted it
to happen. From the way he described it to me, I don't
think she wanted to have sex and I think she was
angry it had happened and she had become pregnant. I
don't know. To this day I can't imagine them making
love," I said. I guess I had a guilty look on my face.
Misty widened her eyes a little and-leaned toward me. "What?" she whispered.
"Nothing," I said quickly and looked away. My
heart had started racing again, beating almost like a
wild frantic animal in my chest.
"Come on. We've told you lots of things we
wouldn't dare tell anyone else," she urged.
"You know that's true, Cat," Star said. "We
hardly have a secret left."
"You can trust us," Misty said. "Really. Who
are we to talk about someone else, right?"
I looked back at the three of them. They did
look sincere.
My mother's warning returned, but she didn't
understand how important it was for me to get all this
out. Look what keeping the ugliness inside her had
done to her, I thought. I don't want that to happen to
me.
"After my father had told me the story of the
lost baby, I would spy on them," I confessed and
quickly added, "I was just very curious."
"So? What did you see?" Star followed. "How did you spy on them?" Misty asked. "All our bedrooms are upstairs, next to each
other. We have a two-story Spanish colonial with a