"Yeah."
"Nicky?"
"Yeah."
He looked across at the others. Pride shook his head. Jake and Kaazim understood.
"We all give up pieces of ourselves to do the job," Edward said.
"Some of us give up more pieces of ourselves than others," Nolan said, and it sounded almost accusatory.
They looked at each other and you could just feel the years between them. Here was someone who had known Edward just as Van Cleef found him, found them both for some mysterious top secret assignment. What had he done to them? What had been so bad that it had made Edward leave the military? What had carved those lines on Nolan's face? Had it been twenty years of working with Van Cleef? I didn't know, but I would find out. I had the keys to Edward's true past; I wasn't going to let them go, as long as I didn't have to meet Van Cleef to answer the riddle. Anyone who scared Edward that much was someone to avoid.
"You have no idea how much I gave up to leave," Edward said.
"And you have no idea what I gave up to stay."
They looked at each other for another minute, and then Edward held out his hand. Nolan took it, and then he pulled Edward into a hug, and they held each other, not like lovers, but like friends, the kind of friends that you make while the bullets are flying and the enemy is anyone who is trying to kill you and the man beside you. Outside of combat you may not have a damned thing in common, but these are the friends who became family who can call you twenty years later and say, "I need your help," and you help. Brothers in arms are brothers of blood, too; it's just not always their own blood that gets spilled to cement the bond.
37
EDWARD'S CELL PHONE sounded. "Police," he said, and answered it. He listened and finally said, "We'll be there as soon as we can, if Captain Nolan will act as transport." He handed the phone to Nolan. "They want to talk to you."
Nolan took the phone and spent his own time going Uh-huh, and Yes, sir, No, sir, and finally, "I don't disagree, sir." He handed the phone back to Edward, but apparently whoever it had been had hung up.
Nolan said, "Change of plans. I'll call ahead and let the rest of my team know we'll be late."
"What happened?" I asked.
"New crime scene," Edward said.
"They want him at the scene and if I feel like you and your people will be assets, you as well."
"They know you haven't gotten to test us yet?" Dev asked.
"They're aware."
"What changed their minds on testing us first?" I asked.
"I believe the phrase was 'I'd take help from the devil himself.'"
"It must be bad, whatever it is," Edward said.
Nolan nodded. "They're more afraid of whatever has happened than of all shapeshifters and necromancers on Irish soil. It's going to be more than bad."
"You always invite me to the best places, Ted," I said.
"You might want to phone your people and prep them. They aren't the hardened campaigners I was hoping you'd bring."
"I won't take everyone into an active crime scene," I said.
"Good, because you're going to be limited and everyone you take in has to be justified."
"Justified to whom?" I asked.
"Me."
"Why you?"
"Because I've talked to you the longest of any of the Irish uniformed officers."
"You aren't a cop," I said.
"No, I'm not."
"What kind of scene is it, other than awful?" I asked.
Edward answered, "They think they found some of their missing Dubliners."
"What do you mean, they think they found them?" Dev asked.
"Do you mean the bodies are so messed up they can't tell?" Nathaniel asked.
I leaned my head against his. "I'm sorry that you even know to think that part."
"I'm not. I want to be okay with what you do for a living, and that means being okay with the disturbing stuff."
I just looked at Nolan and said, "I'm going to kiss him now, because that deserves a kiss. Don't give me grief about it."
Nolan held his hands up. "Wouldn't dream of it. I read your file, Blake. I'd be shocked if you didn't have some of your boy toys with you."
"Nathaniel and I live together and we're engaged. He's not a boy toy."
"My apologies; I thought you were engaged to the head vampire of your country, Jean-Claude."
"I am, but if the laws let us, the wedding would be at least four people."
"I can't make a one-on-one relationship work. If you can do four people in a relationship, then you're the better man."
"I don't know about that, but I'm definitely the better woman."
He laughed then. "I'll give you that one."
I turned my head and Nathaniel turned his, and we kissed, because we were sitting that close to each other. I drew back enough to look him in those flower-colored eyes and say, "Thank you for trying to understand my job."
"Thank you for trying to understand me," he said.
That made me smile, because that was probably the biggest part of being a successful couple in two sentences.
"Where's my kiss?" Dev said, smiling.
I rolled my eyes at him, but Nathaniel just turned his head the other way and offered up a kiss. Dev leaned over and took it.
"Don't ask," Edward said.
"Don't tell," Nolan said.
Dev leaned around Nathaniel to me, and I gazed up into that earnest face. "What did you do to deserve a kiss?" I asked, my voice mild.
"I'm going to go into the crime scene with you. Whether it's zombies, or vampires, or whatever, I'm with you until you tell me to stay with the car."
"Good point," I said, and kissed him, too.
I turned and kissed Nicky last. He kissed me back, then said, "What did I do to earn a kiss in front of the police?"
"I'm taking you into the crime scene with me. Think of it as an apology."
"I'm okay with blood and gore--you know that."
"It's one of the things I love about you," I said.
He smiled at me. "And that fact is one of the reasons I love you."
"And the fact that I'm not as good with the gory stuff is why you're not in love with me," Dev said.
I looked back at him and wasn't sure what I would have said, but Nolan asked, "Now, I'm confused. Why does he get a kiss if you're not in love with him, but you are with the other two?"
"Do you just kiss people you're in love with?" I asked.
He looked surprised and then sort of laughed. "No. No, Blake, I definitely kiss women I am not in love with. If I could have given that habit up, I might still be married to wife number two."
"Two divorces? Your ma must have made your life hell," Edward said.
"She thought I married too young the first time, and she was right. She's upset about the second one, though. She liked Kathleen. Everyone likes her. She's just that kind of person."
"I'm sorry that it didn't work," Edward said.
"Me, too." He looked at me. "How many other people did you bring with you that you'll be kissing on, Blake?"
"At a crime scene, none, but three, four more."
"Every time I tried dating that many women at once, they found out and I was in fear of me life."
"Maybe that was your problem," I said.
"What was my problem?"
"You said they found out, which meant you were cheating on them. Everyone in my life knows about everyone else."
"I've never met two women in my life who wouldn't have killed me, or left me, for sleeping with the other one."
"Oh, Captain, you have been dating the wrong women."
"At least two of Anita's other people are women," Edward added.
"Nope, that settles it. Blake, you really are the better man."
That time I didn't argue with him. I seemed to be winning Nolan over; never argue when you're winning.
38
MY FIRST SIGHT of Dublin was the sea. Nicky had gotten out first along with Kaazim because they were bodyguards and they were in the seats closest to the doors. I guess technically my first sight of Dublin was the paved road that I stepped out on, but I could see that at home. The first thing that let me know that I wasn't home was looking past Nicky's broad shoulders and seeing the gray rolling expanse of the Irish Sea. Nathaniel stepped out beside me and took my hand, and I let him, because I never expected to be standing in Ireland looking out at the Irish Sea; just saying it in my head sounded impossible, or exotic, or cool, or something. I let myself take a few seconds to appreciate the good stuff, before I turned to the bad stuff.
Edward whispered, "Hold hands later."
Nathaniel let go of me first and turned to say, "Sorry. Is it bad that I'm enjoying being in Ireland with Anita when the crime scene is right here?"
"It's not bad," Edward said. "You have to take the moments where you can with our job, or you start believing that the bad stuff is all there is in the world."
I turned and looked up the gentle slope toward the long line of cars and emergency vehicles that had pretty much blocked the street. The uniforms and crime scene tape were different, but a crime scene is a crime scene is a crime scene. Just by the number of people at the scene I knew either it was a murder, it was something important other than a murder, or the town I was in was small and didn't get much crime. I was betting that the last one wasn't true. Dublin was a major city and all major cities have enough crime to keep their police busy.
We were looking at the sea in between a series of houses that weren't so much perched at the edge of the sea as perched on the edge of the cliffs above the waves. A lot of the houses seemed to have glass-enclosed solariums, or just enclosed porches. It wasn't much over fifty degrees Fahrenheit and the rain picked up as we stood there so that it went from a light sprinkle to a drizzle.