“Wine?” he asked.
“No, and I’m not going to apologize.”
“What a coincidence. Neither am I.”
“I’m not the one who had some redhead poking around, humming in those boots.”
He cocked a brow. “You object to the boots?”
“I object to any boots that have six-inch heels the width of my pinkie, but that’s not the point. And you can go all ice storm, but I have plenty of objections to coming home after a pissy day and finding out you’ve decided to make changes to where I work without saying a damn thing to me about it. Without seeing how I felt about it.”
“You’re wrong.”
“The hell I am.”
“You’re wrong,” he repeated, “that you wouldn’t have been consulted, that I would have changed a single square inch without consulting you or seeing how you felt, what you wanted. That’s bollocks, Eve, and I don’t deserve it.”
“You’re the one who had her in here. I didn’t get the memo.”
He looked down at his wine, drank. “I had her come in to revisit the space, to take a fresh look at it with some ideas I’d given her.”
“You’d given her.”
“Yes. As I’m intimate with where and how you work.”
“This is where I work when I’m here. This is how. You’re the one who put it together like this in the first place. Goddamn it.” She shoved up from her desk, yanked out the tear-shaped diamond she wore on a chain under her sweatshirt.
“When you gave me this fat-assed diamond and said you loved me, I just thought you were crazy.”
“I recall.” Eyeing her over it, he took another sip of wine. “Clearly.”
“But when you showed me this, what you’d done for me here, in your home. How you’d made this space for me, just like my apartment, because you understood I needed my own, I needed what I knew. You got that, so I started to believe you did. You loved me. Now it’s not good enough.”
“It’s not good enough, no,” he said, striking her to the core. “It’s not good enough for you—for who you are and what you do every bloody day. But that’s only part of it. Once, you needed that familiarity, that security, to leave your apartment and come here. I needed you. So I gave you what you needed to be here, to have your own here. I thought three years was enough time for you to let it go, really leave it behind, and to make something new, for yourself. Not in my home. In ours.”
His eyes remained cool on hers, but she thought she caught something behind that blue frost. And that something was hurt.
“It’s . . . troubling to realize you still need to hold on to what was before. Before us.”
“That’s not it.” No, no, she wouldn’t swallow that. “That’s not fair. That’s bullshit wrong. I’m not holding on to anything. Much,” she amended. “I’m not insecure. Exactly.”
Shit, shit, shit.
“I’m used to the space. It works fine. How can I have cops come up here, work here, if you go all fancy with it? It’s a work space, for solving murders, closing cases, not for showing off.”
Frustration eked through the ice—which was better to her mind than hurt.
“Updating and creating an efficient work area isn’t showing off. Christ Jesus, for a woman with such professional arrogance, you’re forever worried about your idea of showing off otherwise.”
“You want to talk arrogance, pal.”
“No. I want to talk about that desk.”
“The—what?”
“Are you attached to that desk?”
“I . . .” Thrown off, she shoved at her hair, frowned at the desk. “There’s nothing wrong with it.”