She hadn’t left him, Roarke thought. How could he leave her?
So when the route map he’d programmed into the in-dash ’link told him to turn just before entering the village of Tulla, he turned.
The road wound through a forest, much of it new growth, no more than fifty years old. Then the trees gave way to the fields, to the hills where the sun was sliding through the clouds in a lovely, hazy way.
Cows and horses cropped, close to the fenceline. It made him smile. His cop wouldn’t be pleased with the proximity of the animals, and she’d be baffled by the little old man, neatly dressed in cap and tie and white shirt, puttering toward him on a skinny tractor.
Why? she’d wonder in an aggrieved voice he could hear even now, does anyone want to do that? And when the old man lifted his hand in a wave as if they were old friends, she’d be only more puzzled.
He missed her the way he would miss one of his own limbs.
She’d have come if he’d asked her. So he hadn’t asked. Couldn’t. This was a part of his life that was apart from her, and needed to be. When he was done with it, he’d go back. Go home, and that would be that.
DESTINATION, the ’link informed him, ONE-HALF KILOMETER, ON LEFT.
“All right then,” he said. “Let’s do what needs to be done.”
So, this was their land—his mother’s land—these hills, these fields, and the cattle that grazed over them. The gray barn, the stone sheds and fences.
The stone house with its blossoming garden and white gate.
His heart tripped a little, and his mouth went dry. He wanted, more than he wanted anything, to simply drive straight by.
She’d have lived here. It was the family home, so she’d have lived here. Slept here. Eaten here. Laughed and cried here.
Oh Christ.
He forced himself to turn the car into the drive—what the locals would call the street—behind a small sedan and a well-worn truck. He could hear birdsong, and the distant bark of a dog, the vague sound of a puttering motor.
Country sounds, he noted. She’d have heard them every day of life here, until she didn’t really hear them at all. Is that why she’d left? Because she’d needed to hear something new? The bright sounds of the city? The voices, the music, the traffic in the streets?
Did it matter why?
He stepped out of the car. He’d faced death more times than he could count. At times he’d fought his way around it until his hands ran with blood. He’d killed—in blood both hot and cold.
And there was nothing in his life he could remember fearing as much as he feared knocking on the bright blue door of that old stone house.
He went through the pretty white gate onto the narrow path between banks of cheerful flowers. And standing on a short stoop, he knocked on the blue door.
When it opened, the woman stared back at him. His mother’s face. Older, some thirty years older than the image that was carved into his brain. But her hair was red, with just a hint of gold, her eyes green, her skin like milk tinted with rose petals.
She barely reached his shoulder, and for some reason, that nearly broke his heart.
She was neat, in her blue pants and white shirt, and white canvas shoes. Such little feet. He took it all in, down to the tiny gold hoops in her ears, and the scent of vanilla that wafted out the door.
She was lovely, with that soft and contented look some women carried. In her hand was a red-and-white dishcloth.
He said the only words he could think of. “My name is Roarke.”
“I know who you are.” Her voice held a strong west county accent. Running the cloth from one hand to the other, she studied him as he studied her. “I suppose you’d best be coming in.”
“I’m sorry to disturb you.”
“Do you plan on disturbing me?” She stepped back. “I’m in the kitchen. There’s still tea from breakfast.”
Before she closed the door, she took a look at his car, lifting her brows at the dark elegance of it. “So, the claims you’ve money coming out of your ears, among other places, are true then.”
His blood chilled, but he nodded. If they wanted money from him, he’d give them money. “I’m well set.”