I can’t focus on anything he’s saying for the value to my writing. He’s giving solid advice, and I’m trying to write it down. But Ethan is making my body burn for him.
Ugh, Delia did tell me what I wanted to hear. I change my mind about listening, thinking I’m doing the right thing, and that registrar just blows me off. So now I’m blowing off my good sense.
I start taking notes again. I’m antsy but I know that I’m waiting for Ethan after class and I can pay at least an ounce of attention.
The lecture continues to be both insightful, and just as loaded. I swear, from Ethan’s lips flows a delectable strain of poison that makes me turn to jelly just listening to him.
When the lecture is over, it's a real credit to the interesting quality of his advice that for a few seconds, I’m disappointed.
Then, I’m tingly. I know that I’m going to see Ethan, up close. I pack up my notes and I walk down, waiting for the throng of people with actual questions or hopes to get into Ethan’s trousers.
That cock is mine.
Yeah, that’s a hell of a thought for a little virgin girl like myself, but I look at my peers and think, no. I’m going to ride that cock and get it out of my system and be done with all this stress.
Or will I be done with it? There’s a nagging thought in my mind and I’m pushing it away.
Ethan and I are alone again. The air gets hotter. My mouth runs dry.
“Emmaline,” Ethan says.
His voice saying my name makes me shut my eyes for a second and breathe in that feeling. When I open my eyes, I see him looking at me with such intensity that my pussy is weeping in my thong.
“Can we meet to talk, somewhere outside of school?” I ask, my eyes regarding his office with a knowing little wink.
“Why?” Ethan says, drawing closer to me, his voice deepening.
“Do you want the answer to that, or do you want me?” I say, breathless. My nipples are rock hard, pressing harshly against my shirt. I try to breathe and I’m so caught up in Ethan I'm dizzy.
“Come to my house,” Ethan says. He leans close to me, tucking my hair behind my ear. He whispers his address to me. He pulls back and looks at me. “This evening.”
Emmaline
The low thrum of excitement builds inside me, and I feel like I could float right now — I’m so high. I might start skipping back to my dorm room.
My phone buzzes. Mom.
“Hello?” I answer.
“Honeeeeey!” My mom trills. “I’m in the city, surprise!”
Wow, so that is a surprise. I feel a little guilty, but I’m actually let down that my mom is here. I know that’s why she’s calling me, and normally I would be very excited and trying to figure out how to rearrange my study plans so that I’d be able to spend time with her. Now I’m just feeling woozy at these two worlds colliding.
Ethan wanted her first, after all. God, am I the consolation prize? I so don’t need that in my life. He’s never made me feel that way. Ethan has never made me feel anything but good.
“…get to your dorm so we can do lunch, babe!” My mother’s voice breaks through my thoughts.
I snap back to the present. “Oh, yeah, I’ll be there in just a moment.”
“I was just doing some shopping and I wanted to be able to catch up with you. You sounded so down last time we talked, can’t have that!” My mom’s cheery tone tells me that she’s been hitting the shopping hard.
I’m still a scholarship student but Mom and Dad have been making huge strides in their earnings. Mom is having the time of her life buying everything she used to only see in magazines. She’s not materialistic to a fault, but we all appreciate a good shiny thing now and then and I don’t fault her.
I just feel exhausted by her energy. It's pulling away from my own excitement and I felt like I was pulled from deep thought. It's strange, the worlds colliding. I realize that the affair with Ethan makes me feel like I’m actually an adult now. That’s twisted and warped, but I can’t help that it's true. I feel more foolish by the second. “I’ll be there in a moment, love you Mom!” I say with all the cheer I can muster and hang up.
When I get to my door, I put my books aside, but I shove my notebook for my English course into the tote I’m using as my purse. Silly, but those notes make me feel like I’m bringin
g Ethan with me. I want to bring the memory of his voice and his words with me wherever I go. I want him to touch me more so that his skin can contain those words and those memories, too.