y we just fucked was any indication.
Then I looked in her eyes, saw the regret and knew my little fantasies were just that… Fantasies.
I was hung up on this woman like nobody’s business and all she wanted to do was get away from me.
Was this my penance for handling her heart so callously in the past?
Before she even said us being together was a mistake I knew she would. It still felt like a knife to my heart hearing it though.
I panicked and blurted out the first thing that came to my mind.
“Let’s be friend with benefits,” I had said.
It felt wrong saying it but having a small piece of her was better than having nothing at all.
I would settle for any piece she chose to share with me.
For now.
I told her I would keep my emotions out of it but that was just a promise I could not keep. I needed a plan to win her over. I got out of the shower and towel dried my body. While my mind schemed, I got dressed and headed out. I would grab a bite to eat then head to the library to put in a few hours of studying.
My school bag was on my back when I closed the front door behind me.
It was a new day. The sun was out and even after the terrible way the night ended with Hailey, I was optimistic.
She would be mine again.
I never failed a mission.
Chapter Ten: Hailey
I was reading the same paragraph for the sixth time and still didn’t remember a single word. I sighed when I had to start for the seventh time.
My concentration was shot to pieces and it was all his fault.
Wyatt Murphy.
Being with him had been mind-blowing.
After I left his place, I hadn’t slept a wink, my mind consumed by the remembered sensations of what had transpired.
Even now, between my legs was deliciously sore, a reminder of what I had done with him. I looked around at the other faces in the library, sure that my salacious thoughts were clearly visible to all. No one was paying any attention to me. The serious faces looked like they were actually getting studying accomplished. Unlike myself.
Inside I was realizing that agreeing to a friend with benefits arrangement would never work for me. I wasn’t built in a way that allowed me to keep emotions out of a physical relationship, especially not with the man who was my first and only love. I would have to break it off with him.
Just as soon as I mustered the courage to face him again.
Jesus what a mess I had gotten myself into.
I turned my attention back to the biology text book in front of me and tried to focus one more time. I had been at the library for almost an hour and hadn’t retained anything new yet. I needed to shake off this Wyatt funk because at this rate I would be failing all my classes soon.
Noah was off at a playdate at a friend’s house and I thought I would take the moment of alone time to study. Being at the library always put me in the right frame of mind to do so. Not today though.
My head was down, eyes on a diagram depicting a part of the anatomy when I felt the air in the building change.
I looked up and my eyes went straight for the entrance. My breath caught in my throat.
Wyatt was here and he was looking straight at me. I felt that heated gaze clear across the room and squirmed where I sat, my body reacting as if on unspoken command.