“Wait!” She called out.
He turned around, his plan worked. “What?”
“I…I…uhm…”
“Ky, what is it?”
“Call and let me know you made it home alright.”
“Okay.” He turned and walked out.
The sound of the door closing shut shook her body. She stood in the middle of the room not moving. The tears that had been sitting on the edge of her lower lid, found their way down the side of her face when she blinked. Just this morning, she told Sean she loved him and less than two hours ago, he said he loved her. And just like Zoë said, it was over.
She looked at the clock on the end table, eleven-thirty. It was too late to call her mother. And a call this late to Dee Dee would scare her. She closed her eyes and looked up to the heavens.
“God, what did I do? I can’t believe he just left. He deserves someone who will be everything he needs in a mate. I pray You send him the woman he needs and desires. He’s a good man with a big heart. I see how much he loves You and I only want the best for him. I’m in agreement with him that he will follow the plan You have for him. Please answer Sean’s prayer first, because I don’t want him to be alone. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.”
She put her pajamas on, climbed into bed and cried herself to sleep.
Chapter 63
SHE ROLLED OVER AND LOOKED at the clock. It was twelve- thirty. It felt like she’d been lying in bed much longer. She got up, turned the light on, walked down the hall and stood in the doorway of her guest room. She stepped inside and smelled Sean’s suit hanging in the closet. It smelled just like him, cedar, musk, tobacco with a hint of exotic spices. She looked at Simon’s sweaters and smiled.
She sat on the side of the bed and for the first time in her life, she felt lonely. She laid back onto the bed and closed her eyes.
“Go to him.”
She didn’t move.
“Go to him.”
She opened her eyes and looked around the room. She’d been lying there for almost an hour. She stood up, went into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. The light from the open refrigerator highlighted Winnie’s empty bed and she missed her. She reached inside and pulled out a bottle of water and stood smiling as she thought about the day she got Winnie. She hadn’t planned to get so attached to her, and Simon and falling in love never crossed her mind. She walked back to her room and climbed into bed. She turned the light off, pulled the covers up to her chin and closed her eyes.
“Go to him. I heard your prayer. You, are what he needs and desires. He, is what you need and desire. Don’t be afraid. I’m with you.”
Kyla sat straight up. It had been a while since she’d heard the voice. She remembered what DeeDee said about the voice. She sat there praying in the spirit, waiting for the voice to speak again. After a few minutes, she laid back down.
She drifted off briefly but this time the voice was very loud. “GO TO HIM.” She turned the light on and looked at the clock on her night table, it was a quarter to two. She climbed out of bed, grabbed a pair of black leggings and a black sweater. Stealth-like was the only way to dress at this time of night or morning. She went into the bathroom, splashed some water on her face and brushed her teeth. She came back into the bedroom and slapped a knit cap on her head, and pulled on her favorite black suede boots. She picked up her bag, turned the light off in the bedroom, and stopped at the mirror in the hall questioning herself. “This is either insane or one of the smartest things I’ve ever done.” She applied a little lip gloss and picked up her mink still lying on the chair and let out a deep sigh, “Okay God, I’m trusting You.” She opened the door, quickly came back and picked up the keys and the evening bag she had earlier, and slipped them into her everyday bag, and left.
When she got downstairs, Jerome was putting his coat on. “Where do you think you’re going?” he asked.
“Would you please get me a taxi?”
“Not until you answer me. Where do you think you’re going?” Sounding like her father.
“None of your business,” she barked.
He could see she was upset.
“Please get me a taxi.”
“No.”
“Excuse me?”
“I said no. It’s too late.”
She looked at him, fighting the tears. She didn’t have another plan. The back door to the lobby was always locked after midnight, and the only way in or out was for the doorman to open the door. Kyla knew there was no way Jerome was going to let her out.