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Forgetting Ellie for a moment, I let myself be embraced by our guests. So many people offer their congratulations. Tell me how glad they are that I’m back. I didn’t play much on the Bulldog football team last season, but we’re sophomores now, and I can tell my teammates are ready to embrace me.

It feels good. I feel welcomed. Missed.

Loved.

Diego finds me a beer and we all sit in a circle outside, on the back patio, in the only chairs available out there. People leave us alone, as if they know we need the time to talk. It’s me, Diego, Eli, Tony and Caleb.

“Why haven’t you signed a record deal yet?” This is from Diego, who’s looking at me as if I’m crazy. “I’m sure they’re offering you all the damn money in the world.”

I’m privileged AF and I know it. Diego comes from a middle-class family. A single mama who raised her two sons as best she could. He became a dad when he was eighteen, but he’s doing shit right. Sticking with his girl Jos while they raise their baby girl, Gigi. But he’s all about the money. He hustles during the off-season, trying to provide for his family.

So when he sees me squandering what looks like a good deal, he thinks I’m an idiot. And he’s probably right.

“Is it the money?” Caleb asks. He also comes from a middle-class family. Solid, hardworking parents. “Is it not enough?”

“It’s plenty.” I hesitate, not sure how to word it without sounding like an asshole. But too late. I am an asshole, so I decide to just say it. “But it’s not enough for me to take the deal.”

My dad is fucking rich. He is the manager of one of the most expensive hotels in the Yosemite Valley. Plus, he comes from money. My grandparents were rich too. I’ve had access to whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, my entire life.

Since my parents divorced, it’s been just me and Dad. Mom lives in Oregon. I used to visit her more, but life got busy—for her and for me. Dad has a girlfriend who’s only a few years older than I am, and they like to party. They’ve almost always been my source of booze and weed.

Until I went on tour, and everyone else became my source for booze and weed—among other things.

“How can you turn them all down and settle for this bullshit, when you could be doing so much more?” Diego asks, his voice incredulous. “You’re talented, man. Just—go for it and take the deal.”

How can I explain to them that I don’t want to give up what he calls ‘this bullshit’? I like going to college. Hanging with my friends. Meeting girls. Being on the team. Belonging to something. I have no siblings. Growing up, I spent a lot of time alone, and I hated it. This is why Tony and I bonded so quick last year. We have similar backgrounds.

I look around at all of my friends, and I realize quickly how much they mean to me. How much they won’t judge my ass for telling the truth.

“I’m not ready yet,” I admit quietly, staring at the beer bottle in my hand. I’m buzzing hard. Actually, I’m fucking drunk, and when I have this much alcohol in me, it makes me melancholy sometimes. “I want to play football.”

Caleb makes an exasperated breath. “Rather sit on the bench than get pussy every night?”

“He gets pussy every night whether he’s on a bench or not,” Eli jokes.

They all laugh, with the exception of me.

And Tony.

“I get what you mean,” he says to me, his voice quiet. When Tony talks, people lean in to listen. Because he always has something good to say. “Do your own thing, man. Do what makes you happy.”

I smile at him and hold my beer up, offering him a silent cheers before I slug half of it down.

Soon, I’m blindingly drunk, telling stories about being on the road. We’re laughing as I describe one of the many desperate chicks who snuck onto my tour bus. How I found her in my bed, buck naked, save for a pair of fire-engine red panties.

“Did you fuck her?” Caleb asks excitedly.

“Hell no.” I shake my head. “She was sixteen.”

They all groan in disappointment.

Jailbait is to be avoided at all costs.

“What are you boys doing out here?”

We glance up to find Ava standing there, looking pretty as can be, her gaze scanning over all of us. When her eyes meet mine, they narrow the slightest bit, and I know she’s not happy with me.

Not much I can do to change her mind, so I just grin at her in return.


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