"There, by God!"
"Out damned spot, eh, Acton?"
"And this one, over here," scoffed Acton. "That's the print of a fat man."
"Are you sure?"
"Don't start that againt" he snapped, and rubbed it out. He pulled off a glove and held his hand up, trembling, in the glary light.
"Look at it, you idiot! See how the whorls go? See?"
"That proves nothing!"
"Oh, all right!" Raging, he swept the wall up and down, back and forth, with gloved hands, sweating, grunting, swearing, bending, rising, and getting redder of face.
He took off his coat, put it on a chair.
*Two o'clock," he said, finishing the wall, glaring at the clock.
He walked over to the bowl and took out the wax fruit and polished the ones at the bottom and put them back, and polished the picture frame.
He gazed up at the chandelier.
His fingers twitched at his sides.
His mouth slipped open and the tongue moved along his lips and he looked at the chandelier and looked away and looked back at the chandelier and looked at Huxley's body and then at the crystal chandelier with its long pearls of rainbow glass.
He got a chair and brought it over under the chandelier and put one foot up on it and took it down and threw the chair, violently, laughing, into a corner. Then he ran out of the room, leaving one wall as yet unwashed.
In the dining room he came to a table.
"I want to show you my Gregorian cutlery, Acton," Huxley had said. Oh, that casual, that hypnotic voice!
"I haven't time," Acton said. "I've got to see Lily--"
"Nonsense, look at this silver, this exquisite craftsmanship."
Acton paused over the table where the boxes of cutlery were laid out, hearing once more Huxley's voice, remembering all the touchings and gesturings.
Now Acton wiped the forks and spoons and took down all the plaques and special ceramic dishes from the wall itself....
"Here's a lovely bit of ceramics by Gertrude and Otto Natzler, Acton. Are you familiar with their work?"
"It is lovely."
"Pick it up. Turn it over. See the fine thinness of the bowl, hand-thrown on a turntable, thin as eggshell, incredible. And the amazing volcanic glaze. Handle it, go ahead. I don't mind."
HANDLE IT. GO AHEAD. PICK IT UP!
Acton sobbed unevenly. He hurled the pottery against the wall. It shattered and spread, flaking wildly, upon the floor.
An instant later he was on his knees. Every piece, every shard of it, must be found. Fool, fool, fool! he cried to himself, shaking his head and shutting and opening his eyes and bending under the table. Find every piece, idiot, not one fragment of it must be left behind. Fool, fool! He gathered them. Are they all here? He looked at them on the table before him. He looked under the table again and under the chairs and the service bureaus and found one more piece by match light and started to polish each little fragment as if it were a precious stone. He laid them all out neatly upon the shining polished table.
"A lovely bit of ceramics, Acton. Go ahead--handle it."
He took out the linen and wiped it and wiped the chairs and tables and doorknobs and windowpanes and ledges and drapes and wiped the floor and found the kitchen, panting, breathing violently, and took off his vest and adjusted his gloves and wiped the glittering chromium.... "I want to show you my house, Acton," said Huxley. "Come along...." And he wiped all the utensils and the silver faucets and the mixing bowls, for now he had forgotten what he had touched and what he had not. Huxley and he had lingered here, in the kitchen, Huxley prideful of its array, covering his nervousness at the presence of a potential killer, perhaps wanting to be near the knives if they were needed. They had idled, touched this, that, something else--there was no remembering what or how much or how many--and he finished the kitchen and came through the hall into the room where Huxley lay.
He cried out.