Not once did he ever come back for me or try to explain. Kai didn’t fight for me…he let me go too.
“Killing me Katie
Want you so bad Katie
Your smile is my number one addiction
Making you l
augh is my obsession
You promised me wild horses
Killing me Katie
Want you so bad Katie”
Hearing those words, I have longed to hear for so long my eyes pop open. My skin is on fire as I tremble and shake. Those green eyes that have haunted my every thought are bearing down on me. He looks older now. More like a man. His once smooth baby face now has a goatee and a mustache that almost hides the dimples that own me. He is thicker with more muscle tone defining his tall stature. His hair has grown a bit longer reaching his chin. My fingers ache to run through his silky strands.
His body is making love to the microphone stand, as he moves around the stage, but his eyes never leave mine. His legs wrap around the pole the way they used to get tangled with mine. My thighs clench and my heartaches. Sweat trickles down the small of back…my body remembers every touch…every bite…every lick.
If it were possible, for two people to hate fuck with their eyes that is what Kai and I are doing to each other right now.
I lick my lips wishing his tongue were touching mine. His hips thrust and dear god I can almost feel him between my legs. Every fiber of my being needs him to put me out of my misery and just fucking touch me…something…anything. Dear god I need him!
I am snapped from my Kai induced trance when Stewart taps my shoulder. I had forgotten he was even here.
“You’re Kai Cooper’s regret aren’t you? You’re The Suffocation of Katie.” He looks at me expectantly with puppy dog eyes. I can only nod as my eyes fight and claw their way back to Kai Cooper and his hypnotic voice that is taking me prisoner. I briefly hear the words, “I never stood a chance,” muttered from Stewart.
This is why I have denied myself anything Kai Cooper related for the past year I become so lost in him I forget to breathe because when we are together I don’t even need air. He is my air.
And then he is gone from the stage. Ripped away from my eye line.
Chapter 29
That’s it after a year he has nothing to say to me? Nothing!
“Come on.” Penny is tugging me forward. The security guard from earlier lifts us over the barricade easily. I am just going through the motions. I am still standing back there feeling as if I am in heaven and hell hearing his voice.
I don’t even register where my feet are taking me, I feel so far away from my body. Why did Penny bring me here to bring me face to face with my pain?
When I come to, I am walking up the steps inside a tour bus. I jerk my hand from Penny’s and start to turn away.
“I can’t Penny.”
“You can and you will. You need to see him and he needs to see you. You are both miserable. Whether you fuck or fight I don’t care, but I am sick of watching you waste away.”
“Fine, I might actually be dead right now just so you know.”
Vance and Hunter are sitting at a small table drinking beers. Their faces light up when they see Penny. She goes over and squishes herself between the pair. They are already fighting for her attention just like old times.
Jake pokes his head out from a refrigerator. He smiles at me. “Hey Katie.”
“Hey Jake. Been a while huh?”
He gives me a hug.
“Hey Katie,” Vance says looking devious. He scrubs his fingers over his dragon tattoo on his head. “Did you bring your purse?”