“You know she has NO chance in hell of EVER getting me back. You. Are. All. I. See Kat.” I know he means what he says; it is just hard when Raven seems to always find a way to come between us. Almost every fight we have ever had has had her name in it somewhere. I am tired of it.
“No more lies, no more it’s complicated.” I look him dead in the eye and he nods swallowing hard.
“I’ll talk to her.”
“Yeah, you do that.”
We get back to the house and go to my room.
He steps over my clothes and hangers carefully. Taking a seat on the edge of the bed, he flops down on the comforter lying next to me. I touch my pinky to his for support. I’m hurt but God do I love him.
“I don’t want to fight Kai but I know you aren’t being honest with me and it’s killing me!”
He squeezes my pinky hard with his. “Do you know how much I regret not just talking to you sooner? I used to watch you singing in choir every Sunday at Church. You made me so nervous. This tiny, brown haired girl, with the voice of an angel intimidated me.”
“Why?” I look at him amused by his confession.
“Maybe because when I tried to kiss her once, she kneed my balls and it hurt really bad.” He laughs but then his smile falls. “Are we okay Kat?”
“Wild horses Kai,” I tell him softly, twisting the pendant hanging around my neck.
“I have some things we need to talk about, but I need to deal with Raven first.”
“Okay,” I say and he kisses my cheek.
“I’ll find you in a bit. I love you Kat.”
Kai leaves my room and I start getting ready for tonight’s party.
I am standing in my closet trying to decide on something to wear, when Penny knocks on my bedroom door and I tell her to come on in.
“So you need to get out here to the party. Raven is here and attached to Kai like a damn leech.”
“Great!” I fake smile.
When I come out of my room, Khloe comes running down the hall wanting a hug.
I scoop her up and carry her towards the kitchen.
Kai and Raven are in the living room, I know this because I can hear them arguing.
“It has been over three years you can’t just change your mind now Raven. Funny fucking timing you have!” Kai is shouting and Khloe cringes hearing how angry he is. Penny gives me a WHAT THE FUCK look.
“I don’t need your permission Kai! End it or I go to the press and tell them everything about your family! I WILL tell them! Every. Little. Dirty. Secret!” Raven shouts and storms passed Khloe and me.
Kai comes charging by grabbing her arm forcefully. “You aren’t doing this here—today!”
“What in the hell is going on?” I look at Kai and Raven they are continuing to argue, ignoring Penny, Kirk, Khloe and me.
“You really don’t see it do you. Katie everything you need to know has been staring you in the face for months. Kai and Raven share a connection. One you’ll never be able to touch,” Kirk whispers in my ear, as Kai watches us with a horrified expression masked over his face.
I don’t know why I never thought of this before…I look at Khloe and my face pales as I remember the stories Penny told me about Raven, she gave her baby up for adoption. I count back in my head. Oh my god! Is Khloe…Kai and Raven’s kid? I feel sick. Is that what he meant by complicated? I can’t breathe. I need air.
He senses my fight or flight expression. “Kat,” he says my name with the realization that I am onto his secret hitting him. I put Khloe down and wait for Kai to stop looking at me. He looks about to crumble into a million pieces.
I can’t do this. I don’t want to do this with him right now.
I feel frozen and unable to speak. I shake my head ‘no’ at him.