“Ugh.” she rolls her eyes. “Is that all I am? Your first stop on your way home when you want to get your dick wet?”
“Fuck. I can’t win with you today.”
“I don’t want to fight, James.”
“Then stop nagging me to damn death. If I wanted my ass chewed, I’d go home to Ruthie, but I came here to you.” I move in, crowding her space. “Kiss your man, Lex.”
Her lips part, and I smell the chocolate she was eating when I first got here. “Are you my man?”
“Yeah, babe. I’m your man.”
Arms going around my neck, she launches herself into my arms and cries into my chest. Fuck me. I hold her close, breathing her in. We stay like this for what seems like hours. Me just holding her, giving her light touches, and gentle kisses until she calms down. Her tears stop and my heart cracks because I know I will never be able to give her what she wants. What she deserves. A man who can devote his all to her. I’ll try like hell to be that man for her, but I have my club. I have my wife and daughter.
She’ll never be first. Not until I get my shit straight.
“Go for a ride with me.”
Alexa swipes her thumbs under her eyes. “Is that a good idea?”
“It’s dark. Come on.”
She smiles big and my heart skips two beats. There’s never been anything prettier than when she smiles at me. “There’s my pretty girl.”
“I’ll change.”
“Wear your boots.”
“Okay.”
Alexa and I ride through downtown Charleston. Her arms wrapped around me. Her tits smashed into my back. I squeeze her knee when we roar toward the clubhouse. “I need to make a stop.”
I’ve not brought her back here since the shit that happened with Lion. Not since I became Prez. I pull through the gate and give Grudge a chin lift. He shakes his head but keeps his mouth shut when Alexa takes off her helmet.
“This won’t take long.” I lead her inside, I motion for Nickel to follow, and we go straight to my office ignoring the whispers and stares. Let them fucking talk as long as they don’t say shit outside of these walls or to my wife. Alexa needs to know that I trust her. My club needs to realize she’s part of my life.
“Sit.” I look to Alexa, and she drops her ass into my chair. I stand behind her and Nickel sits across from us. “What’s the word on the Dry Ridge Sinners?”
“They’re stirring up trouble with Grim and his boys in Kentucky. Heard Rebel is involved with Lil’ Bit.”
“Not our concern. With Lion gone, it looks like they’ve got other interests to keep them occupied.”
“I agree. Anything else?” he grins at Alexa, and I want to knock that smug smirk off his face.
“Eyes off her tits. Alexa is pregnant.”
Nickel whistles. “You don’t waste no time, do you?”
“When I’m out of town I want eyes on her. Got me?”
“I hear ya, man. I’ll look in on her.”
“Good and I don’t need to tell you that this stays between us. Don’t need Ruthie catching shot of it and pulling one of her stunts.”
“Cool. Cool. Always a pleasure, Alexa.” He winks at her, and I want to gouge his eyes out. Nickel sees himself out before I knock his head off his shoulders.
I spin Alexa around in my chair bracing my palms on the arms of the black leather armrests. “You’re leaving again?”
“Can’t say for sure, but I’m trying to work out a deal for some extra income. Got a baby on the way. Shit ain’t cheap.”