When the wagon drew even with the tar-papered house, Stefan Reisner leaned back in the seat, pulling on the reins to halt the team. As soon as the forward motion had stopped, Lilli swung down from the wagon, unaided, and walked to the rear to begin unloading the day’s purchases from the wagon box. Stefan was slower to climb down, casting a side look at his young wife, as he had done several times before. There was irritation and impatience in his sternly questioning eyes, but he had voiced none of these to her.
“I vill take care of the horses.” Withdrawing his glance from her, he bent to unhitch the team and drive them to the corral.
“Supper will be ready in a few minutes,” Lilli responded.
Lilli deliberately left the woven basket along with heavier packages for Stefan to carry in after he had the team unharnessed. She juggled the two lighter packages in her arms to pull the latchstring hanging on the outside of the door.
The house was stuffy after being closed up all day long, so she left the door open and set the packages on the bed. Isinglass hung in the window opening. When they harvested their wheat crop, they hoped to replace it with real glass. Lilli rolled up the semitransparent covering to let in air and take advantage of all that was left of the waning light so she could conserve their precious supply of kerosene for the lantern.
Newspapers covered the inside walls to provide insulation, glued there with a paste made from flour and water. Two crude shelves attached to the wall stored cooking utensils and tableware as well as their meager supplies. The cookstove was the only source of heat, the range top also serving as a work counter. There wasn’t any table or chairs. The only other piece of furniture in the house was the bed, which Stefan had built. The mattress was stuffed with grasses and rested directly on the wooden slats that bridged the rough frame.
The few clothes they had were still stored in the cloth satchels, although there were wall pegs to hang hats and coats on. There was one trunk, which held the wash basin and water pail. And the warped floor was bare of any covering.
All the refinements and furnishings would come later. For now, it was an attempt to make do with what they had, and get through the first winter. Next year, they’d build a real frame house. Lilli considered herself fortunate to have this little shanty. A lot of the homesteaders, she’d learned, were living in sod homes. One family was even living in a cave they’d dug in a cutbank.
By the time Stefan had taken care of the horses and unloaded the rest of the wagon, Lilli had a cold supper dished onto a plate and waiting for him. Since they didn’t have a table and chairs yet, they had to sit on the edge of the bed and balance the plates on their laps.
It had long been Stefan’s custom to eat without talking. The purpose of a meal was to consume food, in his thinking, not to engage in conversation. That came before or after, but not during. With this single-minded attitude, he cleaned his plate before Lilli was half through with her meal, even though the helpings on her plate were smaller than his.
When Stefan stood up to carry his dirty plate to the metal basin, the buzzing fly that had pestered him throughout the meal switched its attack to Lilli’s plate. She absently waved a hand to keep it from landing on the few bites of food she had left. Leaving his plate and cutlery in the basin, Stefan stopped to light the lantern suspended by a wire from the middle of the ceiling to chase away the purpling shadows of twilight invading their humble abode.
He glanced at Lilli as he took his pipe from his pocket, but her head was bent toward the plate in her lap. After a meal, he always went outside to smoke his pipe. It was part of the daily routine of his life, so it wasn’t necessary to inform Lilli of it.
“Outside I am going to smoke,” he said.
A brief nod was her only response. His teeth bit down hard on the stem of the empty pipe as Stefan tramped stiffly out of the house. He paused beside the wagon and made a slow business of filling the pipe bowl with tobacco and tamping it down. Before lighting it, he studied the match flame to make certain the light breeze would blow the smoke away from the shanty. Lillian didn’t like the smell of smoke. Stefan knew the reason she didn’t, although she had blocked the cause from her mind.
It wasn’t surprising that she didn’t remember, since she had only been seven years old when the tenement building next to theirs had caught fire and burned to the ground, trapping many people inside. It had been a terrifying experience for a child. And long after the rubble of the burned building had been cleared away, the smell of smoke had stayed in the tiny apartment where they had all lived as one family.
The first stars were flickering in the night sky to join the sickle moon watching over the earth. To Stefan, the stars were like old friends that he hadn’t seen since he was a young man in Germany. Most nights he enjoyed watching them grow steadily brighter while he smoked his pipe. This night he was too troubled by his young wife to give them any notice.
Never had there been any serious friction between them. He couldn’t remember feeling anger toward her, nor any time when she had seemed angry with him. There had always been a smooth, gentle flow of affection between them, starting from the day she was born and Reinald had placed his daughter in the arms of his best friend. Her little fingers had tried to curl around his big thumb. The first link had been forged from that moment.
Through the years, Lillian had come to represent all the things a female might be to a man. First, she had been like a niece. When the consecutive deaths of her mother and father had left her orphaned, Stefan took on the role of family and raised her as his own daughter. But the scandal-minded gossips in the building had looked askance at a bachelor living with a fourteen-year-old girl. Their talk had emphasized the conflict of emotions he felt watching her mature into womanhood. It had been to ease these desires as much as a wish to keep her reputation unsullied that Stefan had suggested marriage on her fifteenth birthday. Lillian had agreed calmly and without any hesitation. The transition from niece/daughter to wife and mate had occurred with ease, so that neither of them was uncomfortable with the change.
Yet something had altered that today. As he puffed on his pipe, Stefan was gnawed by a fear he couldn’t define. Lillian was wise to the dangers of the city, yet she seemed to have abandoned all sense of caution since coming out here. She had heard Franz Kreuger telling how that rancher had sent one of his men to threaten Kreuger’s family, so she should have avoided any association with that cowboy or anyone directly connected to the ranch community unless they had established friendly ties with the homesteaders the way Wessel’s partner had done.
Perhaps he needed to explain that to her. The fire in his pipe bowl had gone out. He knocked the bottom against the heel of his hand to empty the dead ashes on the ground. With the pipe once again tucked in his pocket, Stefan entered the tar-papered house.
The dishes were all washed and dried and stacked on their portion of the shelf. Lillian was untying her apron when he came in. She looked away from him as she turned, folding her apron to lay it on the trunk by the basin. Stefan hesitated, then walked to the bed and sat down.
“Come sit, liebchen,” he requested, softening some of the firmness in his tone by his use of the affectionate reference to her. “Ve talk.”
With her shoulders naturally squared and her chin jutting slightly forward, Lillian approached the bed and sat sideways on the edge to face him. Her deep blue eyes showed a surface calm and not what simmered behind it.
“You are angered vith me because of vhat happened today.” Stefan bluntly broached the issue. “But there is much that you don’t understand.”
“Yes, I am angry,” she admitted. “Because you wouldn’t listen to me. What he said to you was true. He had politely insisted on carrying the basket to the wagon for me. It was a gentlemanly act and that was all.”
He listened patiently to her defense of the man and tried not to give rise to the anger that stirred within. When she had finished, he challenged quietly, “What do you know of this cowboy?”
“I don
’t know very much about him,” she grudgingly acknowledged, but qualified it. “Except he treated me with respect. He certainly didn’t do anything to deserve the way you attacked him. He had made no unseemly advances.”
Stefan sat up straighter, stiffening at her criticism. “I vished only to keep any harm from coming to you.”
“Why on earth would he want to harm me?” Lillian argued. “Do you remember when we arrived by train and I spoke to a cowboy waiting at the station? That was the same cowboy.”