-F.U. (for now)
-F.H. (forever)
I slam the cover of my diary shut and place it and my pen on the bench next to me.
I look up into the mid-day blue sky. I missed my classes today. I was too upset to go to Professor’s Stein lecture this morning, so I stayed home to wash my bedding.
If I hadn’t done that, I might not have been on the elevator with Bianca.
I wouldn’t have heard her tell me Matthew loves me, and I definitely wouldn’t have been there to help Penn Hawthorne make his entrance into this world.
I glance to the left just in time to see the most handsome man on the planet on the approach.
I move to stand, twirling in a circle so he can get a sneak peek of my ass in the jeans I’m wearing and the Rhea and The Pimps shirt I have on.
He laughs as he nears me. “There’s my Faith.”
His Faith.
Matthew stops when a small boy runs at him. “Dr. H? Is that you?”
Matthew scoops the little one up into his arms. “You know it. How are you? How’s Dusty?”
A small white dog on a leash barks as the woman holding onto it rushes toward Matthew. “I’m sorry, Dr. Hawthorne. He just took off when he saw you.”
Matthew shakes his head. “No worries. I’m happy to see you both. How’s Dusty doing?”
“She’s perfect.” The woman gazes down at the dog. “You saved her life.”
“You saved Dusty!” The small boy screams as he circles Matthew’s neck with his arms. “You’re my hero, Dr. H.”
He gives the boy a quick embrace before he lowers him to the ground. “I’m on my way to see my hero. I’ll see you soon, okay?”
“Okay.” The boy wraps his arms around Matthew’s legs one last time. “Bye!”
He takes off toward the crowded playground where children are playing, shuffling their sneakers through the sand, and spinning in circles on the grass.
“I love this park,” Matthew says as he approaches me. “I love you more.”
I run into his arms. “I love you, Matthew.”
He kisses me in a way that leaves my knees weak. I moan through it, relishing in his touch.
“I’ve missed you,” I whisper.
“Jesus, how I’ve missed you,” he growls out. “I was scared, Faith. Scared that you needed more than me.”
I shake my head. “Never. You’re all I want.”
“I was scared that you wanted someone else,” I confess softly. “Gwynn saw you with Professor Stein. She said you gave her flowers and kissed her.”
His gaze never leaves mine. “I went there to find you to give you the yellow roses that your cheap ass boyfriend in high school couldn’t spring for.”
I laugh. “You read that part of my diary?”
“Erin kissed me on the cheek because she was grateful that I told her a long time ago not to settle for just any guy,” he explains. “She didn’t, and now she’s found the guy. That rock star of a molecular biologist guy.”
“Did it take her a long time to find him?” I ask.
“Long enough.” He reaches up to cup my cheeks in his hands. “I, on the other hand, have waited my entire life for you.”
“I’m here now.” I gaze into his dark eyes. “I’m not going anywhere.”
“Something tells me you’re going to be going to medical school to study obstetrics.”
I laugh. “How did you know?”
“That look on your face when the elevator doors opened.” He kisses me again, softly this time. “I saw it then. Love. Love for me and love for what just transpired in there.”
“It was the most incredible thing, Matthew.” I catch my breath. “It was pure magic. If I can help women in that way, what’s better than that?”
“Going home with me now,” he counters with an intensity in his eyes that cuts straight to my core. “Let me take you home, Faith. Let me show you how much I love you.”
I reach back to scoop up my diary. Holding it close to my chest, I take his hand in mine. “I’m all yours.”
Epilogue
3 Months Later
Faith
I glance down at my diary in my backpack.
I didn’t have an entry for today.
I haven’t written in it as much as I used to because I’m living out every fantasy I’ve ever had.
I moved across the hall to live with Matthew. I’m still working my way through pre-med, and I’m volunteering at a clinic that Sadie runs on the weekends. Gavin stops by to help when he can.
It’s a non-profit for people who need to drop by to have anything minor tended to.
I’m not licensed to offer care the same way Sadie or Gavin do, but I help with paperwork, and I listen.
I listen intently when people who have nowhere to go come to us looking for aid.
It’s a good feeling.
Today was especially good because I got to sit with a woman who is in the second trimester of her third pregnancy.