She grins at me. It’s obvious I’m not scaring her off by coming on too strong. And honestly, I am coming on way too strong. I’m making life decisions based on her location.
“Well, then yeah, you better get to thinking about the dream. Because if you’re going to push me into following mine, then you don’t get to sit on the sidelines and not chase your own.”
We finish up dinner, and I dump the plates in the sink. I’ll deal with them later when I haven’t got the most amazing girl in the world sitting in the lounge waiting for me.
We didn’t leave Sea World until it closed at ten, and I’m conscious now that it’s almost midnight. I want Zoe to stay over so badly, but first, we have to have a conversation I’ve been putting off all night.
I go to the lounge and sit down beside her on the couch. She turns to me, and I take both of her hands in mine.
“I think we can both agree that we have something special here, Zoe,” I say.
She nods.
“And I want us to do this right. So when I ask you what I’m about to ask you, I want you to know that it’s not about sex. It’s about me wanting to be with you. Okay?”
She nods again.
“Will you spend the night with me?” I ask. “Just sleeping, nothing else.”
I never thought I would hear myself say those words. Especially not to someone I can barely resist even in public. But Zoe is special, and she brings out a different side to me. One I thought died with my mom. She brings out the loving, tender side of me. The side that wants her to feel safe and protected and loved. The side that wants to hold her in my arms all night long.
“Yes,” she says.
She laughs.
“You want to know something ironic?”
I nod.
“I’ve always wanted to wait until after I was married to … you know. I wanted it to be special, to be with someone I had a real connection with. And I thought being married would be the thing that gave me that connection. Now, I see it’s not that at all. I feel so connected to you, Mac. And I don’t want to wait any longer. I mean what’s the point? Why wait if we’re going to be together forever anyway?”
My heart slams in my chest and my cock starts to stiffen. She’s a virgin. Untouched. She will not only be mine forever, she will only ever have been mine.
“There’s no if about it, Zoe. You are mine now. And I won’t ever let you go,” I say.
She smiles and looks up at me. I can see the desire written all over her face and my cock pulses in time with my heartbeat. Boom. Boom. Boom.
“Then take me, Mac. Now. I want you more than I’ve ever wanted anyone. I need to feel you inside me,” she whispers.
I jump to my feet as lust courses through my whole body, almost pushing me over the edge.
“No,” I say. “You wanted to wait for a reason, Zoe. And we’ll wait. As I said, I want to do this properly. And trust me when I say you’re worth waiting for.”
She stands up beside me and puts her hand on my arm. I fight with everything I have not to lose control.
“So what can we do then?” she whispers.
“Sleep.” I grin.
“That’s it? Come on, Mac. I’m a virgin, not a fucking Victorian. We can kiss and do other things, you know.”
I take a deep breath and hold her by the tops of her arms. I look into her eyes.
“I know. And we will. Oh, trust me, we will, but not tonight. It’s taking everything I have to resist you, Zoe, and if we do anything, I don’t think I’ll be able to stop myself. And call me old-fashioned, but I think you deserve better than that.”
She’s almost panting as she looks into my eyes. I know she’s wet. I can smell her need. How the fuck am I going to be around this girl and not fucking touch her?
“Okay,” she says. “If that’s really what you want.”
It isn’t. What I want is her pussy around my cock. But I’m not going to let her throw her beliefs out of the window so easily. I can make myself wait. And when it does happen, it’s going to blow her fucking mind.
I take her by the hand and lead her upstairs to my bedroom. I still can’t believe I’m taking her into my bed without fucking her raw. Maybe this is a bad idea. Maybe I should have just driven her home. But for all it’s driving me crazy to be around her and not be able to touch her, I know it would drive me more crazy not to have her right here beside me where I know she’s safe.