He pulled the zipper down. The sound was obscenely loud in the silence.
His fingers trembling, Gabriel slid his hand inside to pull Jared’s cock out. It was warm, so very warm, big and hard. It felt good in his hand. Jared’s eyes became unfocused, his breath coming in shallow gasps.
“Because you’re mine,” he said, holding Jared’s gaze, unable to keep the possessive edge out of his voice. His fingers tightened around Jared’s cock. “This is mine, too. You belong to me. And I won’t share you.”
Jared stared at him. “You want it for the wrong reasons.”
“Maybe.” Gabriel dropped his gaze and finally looked at the cock in his hand. The sight made him feel funny. He was holding Jared’s cock. He was holding Jared’s hard cock. The red head peeked out of his fist, glistening with precome. It looked so…dirty and obscene. Gabriel wet his dry lips. “But it’s not repulsive to me or anything. I like it—this. It’s like the evidence of…”
“Of what?” Jared said tightly, the frustration clear in his voice as he knocked Gabe’s hand away from his cock. “Trust me, it’s not an evidence of love. It’s the evidence of my wanting to shove you under me and fuck you senseless.”
“There’s no need to be crude,” Gabriel said, his voice almost as firm as he wanted. Almost. “If you’re trying to freak me out, you didn’t and you won’t. I want to do it.”
“No, you don’t. You’re straight.”
“I may not be completely straight,” Gabriel said. “I think—I think I’m attracted to you. When you kiss me, I always want more. And I…” He blushed. “I kinda jerked off thinking of you the other day.”
Jared gave him a skeptical look.
“When have I ever lied to you?” Gabe said.
Jared raised his eyebrows. “Just an hour ago when you pretended to be sick.”
Gabriel averted his gaze. “I didn’t lie,” he said quietly.
Silence fell between them, loaded with unsaid words.
“Damn you,” Jared muttered angrily, pulling him into his arms and pressing his face against Gabriel’s hair.
Gabriel melted into the embrace. “Please, Jay,” he whispered. “Please, let’s try. Just once. If it doesn’t work, then we’ll forget about it and try to be just friends, like before. But let’s try. I don’t wanna share you. I can’t share you. Please.”
There was another long silence.
At last, Jared heaved a sigh. “This is crazy.”
It was a capitulation.
Smiling, Gabriel pulled back a little to look at him. “No, it’s not. People have sex with total strangers all the time. I think that’s far stranger than having sex with the person I actually love.”
Jared gave him a pinched look. “You have an answer for everything.” His thumb brushed Gabriel’s cheek. “Aren’t you scared and grossed out? Even a little bit?”
It probably should have been a hard question, but it wasn’t.
“I trust you,” Gabriel said simply, and he meant it with every fiber of his being.
A wry, pained smile crossed Jared’s features. “You really, really shouldn’t. I’m this close to pushing you on the floor and fucking you without any prep.”
“Um,” Gabriel said.
Jared stared at him for a moment. “God, you’re so…” He kissed Gabriel—kissed him much harder than he’d ever done before. The kiss was primitive and devastating, savage and forceful, a man staking his claim. After a moment, Gabriel responded to his need, sucking lightly on Jared’s tongue. He had thought he would have to think of naked women to turn himself on, but to his relief, he didn’t have to. He started hardening, Jared’s need fueling his own. And there was something about being naked in Jared’s arms that did things to him. He was naked and vulnerable while Jared was fully clothed and so much taller and bigger. He wasn’t sure why, but his cock seemed to like the idea—despite it being completely wrong. His skin felt sensitive against Jared’s shirt, his nipples aching. He gasped and sucked harder on Jared’s tongue.
Jared groaned and bit his bottom lip before ending the kiss abruptly and stepping back. Breathing hard and his hands clenched into fists, he looked at Gabriel as though he was seeing him for the first time. “Gabe,” he said hoarsely. “If we try this, we’ll go all the way. You do realize that, right?”
Wetting his lips, Gabriel nodded.
“I mean that I’ll fuck you.”
Swallowing, Gabriel nodded again, although the expression on Jared’s face unnerved him a little. He’d never seen Jared look like that.
“Go lie down on the bed, baby,” Jared said, the softness of his words contradicting the dark, hungry look in his eyes.
Gabriel did as he was told, his knees a bit weak and his cock half-hard. He stretched out on his back, feeling odd under Jared’s gaze. He didn’t exactly feel self-conscious, but he didn’t feel relaxed, either. He watched Jared undress quickly.
Fuck. He’d seen Jared naked a few times, but this time it was different. For one thing, Jared was aroused and Jared was looking at him like he wanted to eat him. For another, they were going to have sex. Real sex. Gay sex. He and Jared. Jared was going to put his cock inside of him. Gabriel’s hole clenched involuntarily as he stared at Jared’s massive cock. Okay, he was a bit scared. More than a bit.