My heart drops and my mind races, but there’s nowhere for it to go. Carter isn’t bluffing, and I don’t want to lose my virginity this way, to this asshole. I don’t want to give him head either, but if I have to do one or the other, there’s only once choice to make. Although it’s a struggle to wrap my head around the action, I take a deep, hitching breath and open my mouth.
“Good girl,” he says almost soothingly, grasping his cock and guiding it into my mouth. I squeeze my eyes shut, unable to look, but Carter doesn’t allow me even that much escape. “Open your eyes and watch your teeth. I’m not kidding about knocking them out. I don’t want to, but I will if you piss me off. Now, you take good care of me, all right, princess?”
I don’t even know how to do this. I’ve never let a guy do this before, and now the first time has to be him. When a moment passes and I do nothing, he punishes me, shoving his cock so deep in my throat, I can’t breathe. I panic, grabbing his hips, trying to pull him out of my airway, but he forces my face even closer to his pelvis. My eyes burn and I can’t breathe. He’s literally choking me on his dick, and now my gag reflex is working, trying to make me throw up, but I can’t even get anything up because his dick is lodged so deep in my throat.
My vision starts to go gray as panic seizes me, and I realize this might be it. I’m going to die here of asphyxiation with Carter Mahoney’s cock in my throat. And then, because he’s a fucking psycho, he’ll probably fuck my corpse.
Black starts to eat away at my line of sight and I weaken.
Suddenly, Carter yanks me back by the hair and I gasp dramatically, trying to suck as much air as I can into my deprived lungs. I sob, curling in on myself and nearly collapsing on the dingy linoleum floor.
“This is disappointing, princess. I thought there’d be more foreplay before I took your cunt.”
“Please don’t,” I say, but I sound tired even to my own ears. Tired of making pleas I know he will ignore anyway, tired of hanging onto hope that I can stop him when I know I can’t.
“This is your last fucking chance. You wanna suck me?”
I nod my head, swallowing and pushing to my knees with a shuddering breath. “Please don’t do that to me again,” I say quietly. “I’ll suck you.”
“Good girl,” he murmurs, caressing my cheek, then grabbing my hair. “I’m going to keep a hold of you, just in case you get ornery.”
I crawl forward on my knees, eyeing up his cock as I do. It’s so hard, maybe even harder after what he just did to me. I know he’ll hurt me worse if I don’t do as he says, so I take his cock in my hand and slowly start pumping it. He’s thick, that’s the most relevant thought that springs to mind. If he pushes that thing inside my unwilling body, it’s going to hurt like hell. I don’t know how long it would take for him to get off, but every thrust would be torture physically, in addition to the mental wounds he would be inflicting.
No, I can’t let it get that far. Swallowing, I take one last look at the smooth tip that was just lodged in my throat. It’s glistening from my saliva. I push down my dread, lean forward and take it in my mouth again, then I start to suck.
Carter hisses and I look up to make sure it’s with pleasure. His head is thrown back and his long fingers caress my head almost affectionately, rewarding me rather than punishing me. That must mean I’m doing something right down here. I keep sucking, figuring it’s the suction that feels good. The faster he comes, the faster I can put my clothes back on and get the hell out of here.
“Oh, princess, I like your mouth,” he murmurs, caressing my head like a gentle reward in the midst of his brutality. “Keep doing what you’re doing.”
I want to bite the fucking thing off, but I believe him when he says he’ll knock my teeth out. Instead of hurting the monster, I do my best to pleasure him. I have to break the suction, so I try to do something else that will feel good, but I don’t know what. He said he likes to go deep, so I lean forward and take more of him into my mouth, running my tongue along the underside of his dick. My teeth scrape him when I pull back and his hand fists in my hair again.