I finished by taking off my panties and then I was bare in front of him. He stood there, not touching me, only looking. When his eyes made their way back to mine, a slow wicked grin appeared on his face.
“I’m going to bathe you. Every part. Slowly,” he said then stepped forward and grabbed my waist. He picked me up and walked backward toward the bed. “Then I am going to fuck you in front of the mirror.” He tossed me back onto the mattress and began taking off his clothes. “But first I have to be inside you. I can’t wait any longer.”
He crawled on top of me and I opened my legs as he lowered himself between them. Our gazes locked as he pressed his erection against me. He inhaled sharply. “You’re already wet,” he said and then slowly eased into me.
I whimpered with pleasure as he took his time until he was completely inside. He looked down at me and his breathing was hard and fast. He began to slowly ease out then sink deeper until he had a rhythm. I lifted my hips to meet each thrust. I didn’t close my eyes. I didn’t want to look away from him.
The orgasm that hit me came so fast I hadn’t felt it building. Arching my back, I cried out his name and clung to his arms. Wave after wave crashed over me. Each jolt more pleasure than the last. I said his name over and over, delirious from the most unbelievable experience in my life.
“GGGAAAAAHHHH!” Saul shouted and he pulled out of me. I wanted to watch him, but my body was weak and I couldn’t manage to open my eyes just yet. He groaned again then his body came over mine, turning on his side and pulling me with him.
We lay there wrapped in each other’s arms as our breathing slowed. “Henley,” he whispered against the top of my head, but he said no more. He ran his fingers over my arm, causing goosebumps to cover them. Pressing my face against his chest, I fought the urge to say things that I couldn’t say yet. Things I wasn’t sure of and that I feared may be simply from the moment we just had. Emotion wasn’t something I always trusted. It could affect reality. I kissed his chest then tilted my head back to look up at him.
There were things I was certain of though. Like I would do just about anything he asked of me. I wanted to make him smile always. And that being with Saul made me feel a way nothing or no one else ever had. I had loved Will but I realized now it had been a young love and a first love. We had never known what it was like with anyone else. I would always miss Will and love him. But feeling guilty for what I felt now with Saul was pointless. My life was moving on and it was supposed to.
Later, when we were asleep after showering and having hot sex in front of the mirror where he cursed and said naughty things that drove me to an orgasm, I would go to sleep thinking of him simply saying my name and wondering if he had wanted to say more.
Thirty-Five
Over the next two days, I managed to get several of my recipes written down with the proper measurements. It took a few trial runs, but I figured them out. Hillya was excited to start testing them herself and I was looking forward to not waking up at four to bake on my days off. Emily had spent more time asking me questions about my life during our down times. Now that she knew we were related, she was curious about my mom and my past.
When I arrived at work in the mornings, it felt different. Hillya and I had a connection and it was if I had always been part of the family. They treated me that way at least. I had never had extended family before and it was nice. I realized that not having cousins had been something I missed out on as a child.
Saul had to wake up early on Wednesday to take Lily to another doctor’s appointment and then to an AA meeting. I decided that today was the day I would finish Gran’s list. I had put off doing the last thing simply because I feared it would be a closure I wasn’t ready for just yet. But having Hillya, Emily, and Rio in my life gave me a sense of family that made finishing Gran’s request easier.
I didn’t want to think about summer ending and leaving here, but July had arrived and summer was halfway over. Going back to Chattanooga now seemed impossible for me but then it also meant not finishing my senior year at college and starting a life here. Saul never brought up the future and I wondered if that was just something he was prepared for- my leaving.