‘True.’ He seemed to be inordinately interested in what was inside his wallet now. ‘However, it will not be happening again.’
‘Just like that?’ Beginning to squirm with self-loathing for even trying to discuss this with him, Mia folded her arms around her knees and crushed them to her chest. ‘You—you make love to me, then just—just throw me aside as if my feelings do not count?’
‘Theos! We did not make love, we had sex!’ He spun on her angrily. ‘We had wild hot amazing sex—Mia!’ he repeated harshly. ‘Where was the love in what we did in that bed last night? I did not bring it there! And if you did, then you were—’
His nostrils flared as he snapped his lips together, drawing back from what he had been about to say next. His dark eyes blazed at her frozen expression of horror, then with a muttered curse he turned his back to her again.
‘I was w-what?’ she prompted sickly, feeling like someone living a nightmare she could not wake up from. She found she could not let him stop there even if the rest was going to break her in two. ‘Naive? Stupid? Ready for it? Begging you for it?’
His lean profile clenched. ‘I was not going to say any of that.’
‘Then what were you going to say!’ she fired out.
‘Nothing.’
The liar, the cruel wicked liar!
‘I hate you so much now I will never forgive you for doing this to me,’ she whispered. ‘No doubt you are relieved and pleased to hear me say it!’
‘Actually, I’m not—’ his voice remained cool ‘—I…care about you, Mia. But I’m a loner. I always have been. I don’t do the kind of relationship you are going to expect. You will not believe this right now but I’m doing you a big favour calling a halt now—’
‘As you do with all the other women who have shared this bed with you?’ she flung out. ‘Take w-what you want from them, then toss them to one side like yesterday’s rubbish?’
‘Exactly like that,’ he confirmed.
Stunned that he had dared to admit it as coolly at he had, Mia stared at him for a second, then pushed her face into her knees and hugged self-loathing to her like it was her closest friend. She’d never felt so cheap, so used and discarded. And whatever it was he had tried not to say, the real truth crucifying her right now was she had been asking for it—begging him for it—for weeks before he gave in!
Now here she sat in the middle of his rumpled bed consigned to the low ranks of a one-night stand.
Which was probably her just deserts for being such an easy tramp!
‘Why don’t you just go,’ she whispered when she sensed him still hovering.
‘I…need to know you are going to be all right.’
So he wanted reassurance now? ‘I’m all right.’ She gave it to him with the taste of bitterness in her mouth.
And still he hovered! Why—? Was he going to ask for a litre or two of her blood next?
‘Look…’ he said heavily. ‘I’m—sorry I let this happen.’ He actually sounded it too. ‘It was all my fault. I should not have given in to what was happening between us. You’re young and inexperienced in these things but I am not, and I should have…’
‘Say anything else m-more disgusting to me and I will be sick!’ Mia wrenched out.
‘It was wrong!’ he lashed out suddenly. ‘I dishonoured you and I dishonoured your father—’
That brought her head flying upwards. ‘Don’t you dare bring Oscar into this!’ she lashed back, dizzy at the unexpected hot flare of awareness she experienced when she looked at him. ‘How dare you stand there and speak his name to me as if you have some right to hold him up against me!’
His taut profile paled. ‘I did not mean—’
‘I do not care what you did not mean! I do not care that you feel guilty now that you’ve had Oscar’s daughter in this bed! I gave myself to you willingly and freely. It is you who finds this a shameful thing, not me!’
Standing rigid with shock, he looked as if he’d been turned into rock, and Mia decided she’d had taken enough of this. With an infuri-atingly uncontrollable sob, she coiled her fingers around the sheet and snaked off the bed, dragging the sheet with her as she went.
‘Mia…’
‘No,’ she husked out. ‘Don’t speak another word to me. I hate you. I will hate you for ever.’
Those black feelings vented, she ran into his bathroom and slammed the door shut, then just sank in a puddle of white linen to the floor.