Happiness that we finally gave into our desires.
And sadness that I’ll never have Noah Brennan again.
3
Noah
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
It’s midnight.
I just finished an eighteen-hour shift.
I’m exhausted.
I shouldn’t fucking be here.
Ember deserves better. But one night wasn’t enough. It will never be enough, and I knew it the minute I took her to bed last night. I’m addicted to her.
Her sultry sighs.
The soft moans when I kiss behind her ear.
My name on her lips.
Like an addict, I need more.
Working with her brother, my best fucking friend, all day and not telling him, not begging for his permission, has been eating at me.
For the sake of my sanity, I need to get Ember out of my system and move on. Allow her to move on. She deserves someone who can give her the world. Not someone who’s tainted. Who doesn’t believe in love and happily ever after’s.
“Noah?” Her soft voice draws me out of my inner turmoil, and I look up to see her standing inside the screen door in nothing but a tank top and tiny fucking panties.
“What the hell Em?” I snap. Immediately pissed someone could see her.
“You rang my doorbell, Noah, not the other way around.” She huffs. She’s probably pissed I left without saying goodbye this morning.
“I shouldn’t be here.” I say, rubbing a rough hand down my face.
A flash of her, lying on her bed, legs spread, plays behind my eyes and I’m hard pressed not to drag her off like a fucking caveman right now.
“So why are you?” Her head cocks to the side and I take a step forward, pulling open the screen door, she doesn’t retreat.
“I have no fucking clue.” I tell her honestly and hurt flashes in her light eyes.
“You said one night.” It was a fucking lie.
“I know what I said, Ember.” My hot temper flashes.
“You don’t get to play with my emotions, Noah. It’s not fair.” She whispers.
“Neither is what you do to me.”
“And what’s that?”
“You’re fucking crack, Ember, and I’m your goddamned junkie.” I prowl forward and don’t allow her to say anything as I pick her up and slam her back against the wall.
Her hands go to my hair and tug, but I can’t let her go. I don’t want to. I want her lips on mine for the rest of my fucking life and I can’t have that and it fucking pisses me the hell off.