“Give me two minutes, and I’ll be ready for round two.”
With her enthusiasm, I have no doubt that round two be would be something out of my wildest fantasies, which makes what I’m about to do that much harder.
“Not tonight, sweetheart. Round two is going to have to wait.”
She frowns. “What? Why?”
Cupping her face in my hands, I run my thumbs along her cheekbones. “Because you’re addicting,” I murmur against her lips. “And if I don’t stop now, I won’t stop at all.”
Pushing up on her toes, Shae nips playfully at my bottom lip before sucking it into her mouth. Slowly, she lets go. “Isn’t that the whole point? Kiss first, then fuck.”
“Not tonight.”
“Why not tonight?” she asks, sounding disappointed and entirely defeated.
Because I’m selfish, and I want more from you. I want all of you. But she’s made it clear that more is not something she’s looking for, which is why walking away from her tonight is the stupidest decision I’ve ever made.
But it’s the right one.
“You’ve been drinking.”
Her lips purse, and I can’t help it, I kiss her again. Only this time it’s sweet and simple, a promise.
“When I’m inside of you, and I will be inside of you, I want all of you. I want to know without a doubt that you’re in the moment with me one hundred percent. I don’t want your decision or actions to be clouded by alcohol.”
“Are you challenging me? Because I can guarantee you, I’m all in right now.”
“Trust me, sweetheart, you’re the one challenging me—on levels you aren’t even aware of.”
“Oh yeah?” Reaching between us, she palms my cock.
I’m rock solid, wound so fucking tight that I could explode at any second, and therefore I need her grabby little hands anywhere but on my cock. Taking Shae’s wrist, I pull her hand to my lips and kiss her knuckles.
“Yeah.”
“Stay,” she offers.
I kiss her mouth, then her cheek, and then the soft spot behind her ear. “Tempting,” I whisper. “But I can’t.”
She puts her delicate hands around my neck and brushes her lips against mine. It’s a sweet kiss—innocent—completely opposite of the dirty thoughts running through my head.
I can’t remember the last time a woman kissed me with so much care. Most of the time they devour, only looking for one thing, but not Shae.
I look down at her. “What was that for?”
“Just because I wanted to, and it’s not very often I do things just because I want to. Right now, I really want to fuck you.”
Her eyes plead with me to stay, and for a split-second I rethink my decision, but I can’t. My rules are in place for a reason, and I refuse to sleep with a woman who’s been drinking.
“We’ll have dinner this week, and then if you’re good, I’ll finish what I started tonight.”
“Rex…” She shakes her head, looking down at the floor. When her eyes meet mine I can tell she’s still unsure.
“I’m not asking, Shae.”
She chews on her bottom lip. “Okay.”
“Okay?”