I take a swig of the beer, looking at her.
“Warm enough?”
She cocks her head playfully. And she shakes it again.
I smile to myself, even through the sinking in my stomach.
I really wish I could’ve surprised myself and been stronger. I wish I wasn’t such a lousy piece of shit.
She climbs out of bed and walks over to me, taking the bottle out of my hand and wrapping her arms around my neck so I can lift her up.
Her legs circle me like a belt, and I grip her ass.
“Wanna come into my bed tonight?”
She buries her face in my neck and holds me tight, her breath and body warm and wanting on my skin.
God, this feels good.
And I carry her into my bedroom, slamming the door and hiding us away.
This will end.
Just not tonight.
Tiernan
I wake with a start, my fingers aching as I slowly unclench them from the sheet. I blink a few times, seeing the time on the clock come into view.
1:21.
The room is dark, and I turn over onto my back, the cool air hitting my bare breasts. I quickly pull the sheet up, covering myself as I remember everything we just did a couple hours ago.
And in the truck yesterday.
I reach down, slipping my hand between my legs, the raw skin stinging a little and my thigh muscles aching.
I smile a little.
I’m glad it was him.
What I told him last night was true. No one’s first time is good, but mine was. It hurt, but he was careful with me.
He wasn’t selfish or mean or impatient.
I look over, but he’s not in bed. I should probably get back to my own, actually.
A light glows from the bathroom, and I sit up and slide my hand under the sheets, finding my panties and shirt. Swinging my legs over the side of the bed, I slip them both on and stand up, stretching. I wet my dry lips as I pull off the rubber band on my wrist and tie back my hair, walking for the sink to get a glass of water.
But as soon as I step into the bathroom, I see Jake standing in front of the mirror turned to the side, with his arm raised, and gazing at the tattoo on his hip.
My Mexico.
He catches my eyes in the mirror, and I drop mine, backing out of the bathroom.
“Where are you going?” I hear him ask.
I stop and step back into view, but I just want to be gone now. Out of his way.