"Jax." I barely spit out the word before I feel another orgasm rolling through me. It's never been like this. I've never felt so many sensations so intensely before.
He quickens his thrusts and pushes on my back, pulling my ass even higher. "This is too good, beautiful,” he groans loudly. "I'm going to fuck you forever."
I push back at the sound of the words. I want that. I want to be his forever.
"Ivy," he growls my name through a deep moan and I arch my back more. I want him to take this pleasure from me. I want him to feel it too just like I did. I need that for him. I crave it more than anything.
"Touch your clit." He rubs his hand across my mound. "Touch it."
I pull my hand back to circle my fingers over my swollen clitoris. His hand joins mine and he applies even more pressure. He wants me to come again. He wants me to take more from him.
"Oh, god, yes." My voice is a breathless whisper. I feel as though I'm lost in the pleasure. It's all so much. "I have to come."
"Not yet." He pounds me harder. "Together. Ivy, together."
I nod into the pillow. I push back, matching his rhythm. Our hands are interwoven teasing my clit.
"You're mine." He pulls his hand back and pulls on my thigh. "You'll always be mine."
His words push me to the brink. I can't stop my body's reaction. "Now," I blurt the word out with a loud moan.
"Now," he screams as he races to the edge and fills me with his desire just as I fall into a heap onto the bed.
Chapter 14
"Ivy." I feel his muscular arms encircle me from behind as he steps into the shower. "Beautiful."
I pull him into me, wanting the closeness to last beyond tonight. I need our connection to be this strong outside the walls of our apartment. "I still can't breathe."
"I'm scared." The words feel foreign and misplaced coming from him.
I turn quickly and reach for his face. It's damp from the water. I push the moisture away and cup his cheek in my hand. "Scared? Of what?"
He doesn't respond. He pulls me into his chest and I wrap my arms tightly around his waist. Even in a semi- hard state I can feel his cock pressing against me. I still want him. If he wanted to claim me again right here and right now, I'd drop to my knees and please him. I'd take him between my lips and pull another orgasm from within him just as he did with me.
"Jax, please," I plead with him.
His body moves slightly and I realize he's sobbing. I try to look up but he's too strong. He's pressing my body into his, molding our two frames together under the heat from the shower.
"Jax." My eyes are filled with tears now too. What's happening? What is he going to tell me? Is that why he took me so ferociously in the bed? Because he's going to do something that will make me not want him anymore? It's not possible. I have to tell him. "Tell me," I whisper into his chest. "What's scaring you?"
"I want us to go away." He moves back slightly so I can tilt my head up to look at him. "I n
eed that."
I nod even though I know I can't leave right now. I have to go through Mark's apartment tomorrow to ready it for sale and I have to finish up the work that I'm desperately falling behind on. None of that matters right now. All that matters is Jax and I.
"You know I've never loved anyone but you." The words cut through me like a razor sharp knife. He wouldn't be saying that unless he believed I doubted that fact.
"I know." I try to temper the fear in my voice but it's almost impossible.
He presses his lips to my temple and I feel a shudder course through him. "I can't survive losing you. I can't."
"I'm not going anywhere." I pull him closer. "I'm not."
"You know I can't live if you're not with me, don't you?" It's a question that he doesn't need to ask.
"I'm not going anywhere." I raise my head and search his face. "What's going on?"