I lean over and kiss her lips gently again, trying not to get us both worked up when we can’t do anything about it.
“But first…” she starts.
I suck in a breath waiting for what she’s going to say.
“Langston and Liesel. Are they…?” She can’t even finish the question.
I should say they are dead. It would protect them both more until they are safe that I’m the only person that knows that they are alive. But I can’t put her through what I went through these last few weeks thinking she was dead.
“They are both alive.”
She exhales the breath she was holding. “Really? They are both alive?”
I nod. “Yes, I’ve seen them both. Langston wasn’t in great shape, though. I sent him away to recover. And Liesel wasn’t safe. So they are both hiding. Both pretending to be dead.”
“I know how that feels.”
Why?
Was it because of Felix? Or something more?
But I don’t ask, because right now it doesn’t matter. What matters is being with her.
I get out of the car and walk over to the door. I open it for her and scoop her out as I carry her to the front door. I take the key from her and carry her over the threshold.
And just like that the mood changes. The spark between us returns in full force. And I drive my mouth hungrily over hers at the same time her hands grip my hair, pulling me down roughly.
Kai nips at my lip as my tongue sweeps into her mouth. The kiss is everything and not enough at the same time. We both want more. Both desperate to feel alive again after both being dead for so long.
I can feel her heart thumping heavily in her chest, my own heart matching hers.
I have to stop this, my mind reminds me.
But my body can’t.
“Kai,” I say, sternly against her lips. “We have to stop. I have no control right now when I’m around you. And I won’t hurt you. I can’t.”
Kai places her hand on my lips, and I slowly lower her to her feet, knowing we need some separation.
“Is there anything I can say that will end in you fucking me?” she asks.
I shake my head. “Your father was concerned. I know you're minimizing whatever happened at the doctor.”
“So if I called the doctor who saw me, and they approved me for sex, then?”
My cock hardens painfully in my jeans, so desperate to be inside her.
“Yes, then I’d make love to you,” I say.
She smiles at my change of words from fucking to making love. For us, it will always be making love. And as much as I want to fuck her hard on every surface in this house, I won’t. I won’t hurt her or the baby. But I do want to fuck her—slowly, gently taking my time, so the moment lasts forever.
She pulls out her cell phone and dials a number. “Hello, doctor Aspen. I’m sorry to bother you; I just have one question I need answered.”
The man must say something back, and then Kai asks, “Is it safe for me to have sex?”
She presses a button for speakerphone and then holds the phone out so we can both hear the answer.
“Yes, I don’t see any problem with you enjoying intimacy. Just monitor how you are feeling and take it slow. But I would think it could actually help your anxiety and blood pressure.”