“Just…fuck. I know for whatever ridiculous reason, you feel more comfortable naked than wearing clothes, but I just can’t—I can’t.”
“You can’t look at how disgusting I am?” I spout my anger.
He rubs his neck. “I can’t look at how attracted I am to your brokenness.”
My eyes widen at his admission. I knew he was attracted to my pain, but now I’ve confirmed it.
“I’m twisted, Kai. I’m not your savior, and I’m not your monster. I may have been the boy who saved you only to turn into the savage who destroyed your life. But now, all I want is for you to disappear again like before.”
Shit.
“I’m not going to sell you. T
hough sometimes we don’t get what we wish for.”
His eyes bury into mine, and I can feel everything. His lust at wanting me, his fight at holding back. And his desire to go hunt and kill the man who hurt me. Enzo Black may be a monster, but he may be the kind that protects me instead of hurts me—at least this new version of him. I can see the regret in his eyes at selling me, but I can’t forgive him. I can never forgive him.
Never.
He seems to regret that too.
But I can’t make his life easier. I won’t wear a shirt, because it will make sleep harder, even if I’m tempting his self-control. Even if I’m risking him fucking me by exposing my body to him.
I lay down in the corner, naked.
He sighs.
“What am I going to do with you, Kai?” he says to himself.
I’m broken, you don’t have a choice of what to do with me. Just let me go. Stop hurting me.
I expect him to leave—find a different room to sleep in.
Instead, he starts removing his clothes.
Shoes, then tie.
Then the slow unbuttoning of his shirt, until his rippled body appears. And then his pants slide down his thick legs.
I expect him to stop.
He doesn’t.
He removes his boxer briefs.
My eyes burst, and my heart pumps wildly at the sight of his thick, long cock. It’s only partially erect, but it’s the most glorious thing I’ve ever seen.
“What are you doing?” my body freezes. He’s told me many times he won’t fuck me. Or even touch me. He’s disgusted and turned on at the same time. But then why is he naked in my room?
“I’m going to sleep. I prefer to sleep naked too. If you get to sleep naked, then so do I.”
I frown.
“This isn’t your room.”
He rolls his eyes. “Are you going to be able to sleep without me here?”
I flame. “What?! You are one cocky ass if you think I can only sleep with you here.”