This shadow that haunted our lives for ten years needs to fucking go.
Aiden opens with a grunt. His kiss is rough, rougher than any other time I remember. He claims me, devouring me whole.
The
intensity of his passion ignites and we burn in a perfectly imperfect harmony.
For a moment, it’s only him and I in this atrocious world. A world that turned him into a monster and robbed me of my life.
For a moment, he’s the most important person in the world. I want to engrave myself under his skin so nothing can separate us again.
I want to be one with him.
The thought of living apart destroys me like nothing else. The thought is torture like being held underwater.
I’ve been drowning and I’m finally coming up for air.
We pull away for much-needed breath, but Aiden doesn’t allow me to leave his orbit. It’s like I’m the centre of said orbit.
He rests his forehead against mine. The tips of his fingers stroke my cheek, the curve of my lip, the hollow of my neck, the line of my collarbone.
It’s everywhere, his touch. Like he’s relearning me and getting his fill.
Our ragged breathing fills the air like two desperate souls clashing only to find refuge in each other.
Everything becomes heightened. The squeak of the leather beneath us. The smell of pine trees from outside. The low whistle of the wind.
And Aiden.
I’m so lost in his masculine beauty and tousled hair. In his skin against mine and the metallic gaze.
In all of him.
He speaks against my skin, rough and unpolished. “There hasn’t been a day where I haven’t thought about you. Every time I manage to sleep, I dream of you. You were my obsession since we were kids, but now it’s way fucking worse. I don’t know how I managed to spend eight years without you in my life when now I suffocate if I don’t see you for hours.”
My eyes fill with tears. “Aiden…”
“Choose me, Elsa. Choose us.”
There’s nothing more I want than to do that. I want to be with him so bad, it’s eating me from the inside.
It’s driving me insane.
It’s ripping at my heartstrings.
His hand slides from my face to my throat. He wraps his fingers around it in a vice-like grip. His forehead disconnects from mine and the clouds in his eyes darken. “I’m being fucking nice here, Elsa. I’ve been patient, but I’m this close to say fuck everything and take you all to myself. Don’t. Push. Me.” He emphasises as he strokes his thumb over my pulse point. “Even I don’t know what I’ll do.”
My temper flares at that.
“You know what? It doesn’t always go as you want, Aiden. If you want to be with me then you’ll have to learn a little something called compromise. Google it. I won’t be the one who always bows her head while you get your way. That’s not how relationships work. ” I push his hand away and jump to my feet. “Take me home. Dad must be worried.”
His left eye twitches and I expect him to drag me back down. He doesn’t. He just stands and storms out of the Meet Up.
I watch his rigid back with frustration bubbling in my veins. I was seconds away from melting into his arms, but he had to ruin it by reverting back to his dickhead ways.
I follow him out to his Ferrari. No words are spoken after I give him directions to my dad’s new house.
The entire way is spent in silence. The type you taste in the air, bitter and sour.