I don’t know if he says these types of things on purpose or if he really means them. Either way, it’s working.
My face heats and my toes curl.
“You should be thankful I’m on the shot. You didn’t even ask if I were on birth control the first time…” I trail off, my eyes widening. “How did you know I was on birth control?”
“I didn’t.”
“You… didn’t? What if I wasn’t on anything?”
“So what?”
Oh, God. I want to bash his poker face against the window.
“So what? So freaking what? I could’ve gotten pregnant!”
He tilts his head to the side. “You’re not.”
“What if I were, huh?”
“I don’t consider hypothetical situations.”
“Well, consider them now. You want me to trust you, right? Then be honest with me. What would you have done if I were on nothing and fell pregnant?”
He sighs, keeping his attention on the road. “I would’ve taken care of it and you. I’m not irresponsible.”
“Have you ever thought about my opinion? What if I don’t want kids this young?”
“I didn’t plan on impregnating you, but if it happens, it happens, Elsa.”
“Yeah, right. You totally didn’t plan on it and the proof is not using a condom. Did you do that with all your previous sexual partners?”
We stop at a red light and Aiden’s icy stare bores into me. “You’re the only one I haven’t used a condom with. Do you think I was in my right mind the first time I fucked you? Or every time after for that matter? The moment I knew you were a virgin and that you were offering your virginity to me, I lost it. Do you think I had the time to think about a fucking condom when your tight pussy was clenching my dick that hard?”
“No?”
“Fuck no.” He takes my hand in his and places it on the swell of his jeans. “I’m hard just thinking about that night, sweetheart.”
“Perv.” I yank my hand, but my cheeks flame. “Do you have some virgin blood kink?”
“Only yours, sweetheart.” His left eye twitches. “I was pissed off at the thought that someone else touched you and has been inside you, so imagine my surprise when you gave it to me.”
My knee-jerk reaction is to tell him that it isn’t a big deal.
But that would be a lie, wouldn’t it?
I gave him that part of me, and I don’t regret that he’s the first one who knows me intimately.
“How was it like when you lost your virginity?” I ask, my curiosity getting the better of me.
The green light goes on and he kicks the car into gear. “Boring.”
“Can you give more details?” I ask.
“I was fifteen and I was sick of Knight and Astor urging me to shag and sending me gay porn sites in case I was interested in the other sex. In comes my father’s secretary. She was the only female he allowed close after Alicia’s death and I didn’t like it. One night, said secretary was flirting with me in the kitchen. I pushed her against the counter and fucked her from behind. Unlike what the guys warned, I didn’t come pre-maturely. I had to ram inside her for fifteen minutes before I found release. Now that I think about it, the second-rate porn noises she made must’ve been the turn-off.”
“Wow.” My mouth hangs open. “I… have no words for that.”
He lifts a shoulder. “You asked for the details.”