When it stopped, I said. “No, I shouldn't.”
It vibrated a third time and she arched a brow.
I sighed, not wanting anything or anyone to get in the way of being with Emory, but ignoring the world didn’t mean it would go away.
I leaned and grabbed the phone. “Yeah.”
“I found him.” Reed.
I took my leg off the bed and turned away from Emory. I didn’t want the sight of her naked body, of her innocence, combined with any conversation about my dad.
“Where?”
“Atlantic City. He’s been there since Tuesday.”
I hit the End button and tossed my cell back on the table where it clattered then fell onto the floor.
This news meant he either arranged for someone to break in to Emory’s house or knew nothing about it. I had a niggling, annoying feeling that it was the latter. If it were true, that meant there was someone out there—not my father—who wanted to hurt Emory.
“What is it?” Emory asked behind my back.
I wanted to keep her separate, keep her safe from my past. I’d wanted to push her away, and I'd even told her I was nothing but trouble for her, but neither of us, it seemed, cared. I wanted the present, the now, to be much stronger than the past, but that was not a sure thing right now.
I turned, eyed her. Damn, she was pretty, her perfect breasts with those pink nipples. I sighed, wanting to get lost in her, not taint her with the truth.
She tilted up her chin. “Tell me. I want to know. I need to know.”
I gave a stiff nod and moved to sit on the edge of the bed. I grabbed the top of the sheet and lifted it up. She somehow knew I wanted her covered. Maybe it was the grim set to my jaw or the pissed-off glint in my eye.
“It’s time I told you about my past. My dad.”
EMORY
All of the heat that had been in Gray’s eyes was gone, and what was left was icy and empty. I held the sheet up over my breasts and leaned back against the headboard. While Gray was naked and sitting sideways on the bed, it felt better being covered for this, wanting only the other Gray, the eager-for-me Gray, to see my body.
“My father was, is, an asshole.” Gray leaned down, resting his forearms on his thighs. He wasn’t looking at me, but at the far wall, although I wasn’t sure if he was even seeing it. He was looking into his past, into his memories and I dreaded what he was going to say.
“He used to hit my mom. All I remember from when I was little is them shouting, the sound of the slaps, her crying. I would hide in the closet.”
The words came out short and clipped, dark and laced with grit. I wanted to ask him questions, but knew it was hard enough to get the words out without prodding. He’d held them in, probably, for a long time. Having him tell me this meant just as much as every promised look and kiss.
“In the morning, she’d be making me pancakes and she’d have a black eye or a split lip. Sometimes she’d still be in bed and I’d get her cereal. I…I knew what he was doing and I did nothing to stop him.”
Sadness and anger filled me, overflowed, thinking of Chris when he was small and him having to deal with that. “You were just a boy.” I wanted to reach out and touch him, but he was too far away, too far in the past.
His head moved back and forth slowly. “I was. But I knew. Then one day I’d had enough of hiding and stood between him and my mom.”
He turned his bleak eyes on me. “That was the start of my fighting career.” Then, from one heartbeat to the next, he changed. His gaze sharpened, his jaw tightened, his fists clenched. “It was one of the last fights I lost.”
It was so quiet in the room I heard the air conditioning coming through the vents in the floor.
“My mother died two weeks later.” He dropped his head and looked at the carpet. “Car crash. I was in the backseat. The story is that she was so drunk she drove right into a tree. What I remember is that my father was driving. When I woke up in the hospital two days later, my father didn’t have a scratch. I’d broken my arm and had a concussion from the accident, but my mother had died instantly.”
My eyes widened and I licked my lips. “Are you saying your dad moved your mom so it looked like she caused the accident?”
“All I know is my dad was driving when we got in the car, but no one believes a kid. I had a head injury and my dad said I didn’t know what I was talking about. After that, when I got home, he turned his anger on me.”
My eyes filled with tears. Tears of sadness and horror. “How…how old were you?”