I wanted—needed to make him feel what he’d made me feel. I wanted to give that to him.
My heart belonged to him, but I wanted us to belong to each other completely.
I kissed his neck, inhaling his scent. So addicting, so male.
“Make love to me,” I said.
He pulled me back, gazing down at me with a question in his eyes.
I placed a gentle kiss on his neck, reassuring him. “Please.”
His nostrils flared, his eyes turning a darker green. “God. You’re going to fucking ruin me,” he groaned.
I framed his face with my palms, marveling at the beauty of his features before pressing my lips to his. Tentatively, I caressed his lips with my tongue, and a groan escaped his mouth as he positioned himself on top of me, taking control.
He was in charge, and we both knew it.
His hands palmed my breasts, stroking and caressing while his mouth feasted on my lips, my neck, the skin above my breasts. His hand slid down my ribs, my stomach, my hips, an
d between my legs, but he never stopped kissing me.
And then his finger was there, petting and making circles. I pulled my mouth away from his as I let out a loud moan, my head falling back against the pillow.
“So beautiful. Come for me, baby. Come all over my hand.”
My fingers dug into his skin as I bowed off the bed, pleading with him to give me relief. His mouth swallowed my cries as I came apart.
Dimly, I was aware of him getting up. I heard the snap of a drawer, the rustle of clothes, and the crinkling of plastic before he was back.
I blinked up at him, still floating in the haze of pleasure he had put me in. I noticed the tight skin around his mouth, the way he gritted his teeth, the lust and love in his eyes as he gazed down at me, and his arousal that pressed against my thigh.
“Caleb?”
“Yeah, baby?”
I heard his sharp intake of breath as I reached to unbutton his pants. He stopped my movements with his hand.
“Are you sure?” he asked hoarsely.
I nodded. “I want to belong to you completely, Caleb.”
He kissed me hungrily, his arousal pressing between my legs. He took off his pants and boxers, and I felt heat flood my cheeks as I noticed how big he was, how aroused as he rolled the condom on. Suddenly, he was back on top of me, his arms on either side of my head as he gazed down at me with hunger. I felt him press himself between my legs, rubbing himself against my center. He was hot, hard, and unyielding. I closed my eyes, preparing myself.
Then nothing. When I opened them, I found him smiling at me tenderly.
“Here. Stay with me. Right here. Just right here, my Red.”
His hand trembled as he stroked my face. He bent his head and drank from my lips, all the while murmuring about the love he felt for me.
“I’m scared. I’ve never done this before and”—I drew in a shaky breath—“and I don’t want to disappoint you. I know you have a lot of experience and you have expectations, and I’m scared that I won’t be able to—”
“Red.” His voice was low and rough. “Nothing could even come close to how you make me feel just by being here. How could you even think you’d disappoint me?” He smiled, lovingly stroking my cheek. “What you’ve given me is more than I could hope for, and if you decide you don’t want to continue, we’ll stop. I want to make this perfect for you. This night is all about you.”
At that, all my fears melted. I reached for him, pulling him down to me for a soul-searing kiss. His hands reverently touched my thighs, my hips, circling around my waist until he gently caressed my breasts, his thumbs flicking my nipples before he bent his head and sucked my nipple in his mouth. I moaned, wild with pleasure.
The love he spoke of was in his touch, in the hungry movement of his lips, his tongue, his teeth as he kissed me. I was soaked with it, drowning in it, and I wanted more.
He searched my eyes as if looking for some hesitation—but there was nothing. My mind and my heart were made up. It was scary and overwhelming, and there was no turning back for me after this. As I looked into his green eyes, I knew—I didn’t want to turn back. I was at the edge of the cliff, hanging by my fingertips. And I realized I was ready to fall forever. He was the one. He always had been. There would be no one else for me.