“Have you ever been in a committed relationship, Risk?” the lady asked. “We know you’re the wild, bad-boy rocker, but have you ever had a steady girl?”
“Yep.”
“Who?”
“Her identity is private, she’s not in the spotlight and I don’t want her life put in it because of me.”
My heart thrummed against my chest. He was talking about me. I knew it.
“Was she special?”
“Very,” Risk answered. “I never had another girlfriend after her so make of that what you will.”
“Wow,” the interviewer said. “Do you see her often?”
“I don’t see her at all,” Risk said. “She broke up with me just before I moved stateside so it’s been a long time since I’ve seen or spoken to her.”
The interviewer’s eyes widened.
“I bet she regrets breaking up with you now that you’re the Risk Keller.”
I could tell that Risk was tired of this interviewer just by the way he looked at her. He was bored and maybe even a little irritated.
“She was fine before me so I’m pretty sure she’s fine without me too.”
I paused the video and noticed that my hands were shaking.
I had heard enough of this kind of conversation, because it involved me directly. I was sure Risk had received questions like this dozens of times before and hearing him respect my privacy touched me but was made my heart pound because when he spoke of me, I could hear fondness in his tone. This interview was before we reconciled. I checked the upload date. Three years ago. Wow. It made butterflies fill my stomach to know he was thinking of me during a time period when we hadn’t seen or spoken to one another in many years.
I knew he was asked a question but it was comforting to know that I was on his mind, because he was always on mine. I felt good about that, but that emotion was snatched away when I accidentally scrolled down to the comments and read what some of the more hardcore Sinners had to say. Apparently, they didn’t have a filter, or manners, when it came to posting comments on the internet.
BabyMama4Risk: No hoe is good enough for our Risk. NO DUSTY BITCH THAT WALKS THIS EARTH! That’s on periodt!
Like It Is: I don’t no who Risk’s ex gf is but I STILL dgaf about Nora, she is SO plain. Not hot at all. Risk is a GOD. A FUCKIN GOD!
DaddyRisk: I wnt him 2 marry me!!!! Risk pls!
HayesIsBae: What psycho bitch would dump RISK KELLER? Is she gay? Fuckin’ has to be because WHAT A DUMB FUCKIN BITCH!
Angel’s Angel: My guy is SO stoned, he can barely keep his focus on the woman interviewing him. 420 bitches! Roll up!
HayesChoice: I bet that stupid cunt who dumped him is SICK with herself now that he’s blown up. Stupid ass ho!
I clicked the home button to get out of the video and the nasty comments. I felt a little sick after reading them. These people were insulting me and calling me horrible names without knowing a single thing about me or about my and Risk’s relationship. They had no fucking clue that if I didn’t break up with him they wouldn’t have their superstar Risk Keller. I felt myself get frustrated with the commenters but I took comfort in the fact that they didn’t know I was the woman Risk spoke about. I was just a faceless and nameless person to them. That relaxed me . . . for all of two seconds.
I accidentally hit the trending option on my screen and when I saw what the number one trending video was on YouTube, I nearly had a heart attack. I jumped with fright and gripped my phone when I read the title of the video.
RISK KELLER AND MYSTERIOUS WOMAN KISS ON SOUTHWOLD PIER!!
I screamed when I clicked into the video and both Risk and I came into view. We were at the end of the pier, leaning against the rail as we gazed out at the ocean. The lighting on the pier showcased our faces easily. We laughed and it was obvious we were speaking to one another but then Risk turned this body to face mine. I had my eyes closed but when I opened them and realised he was looking at me, my entire facial expression changed. I looked up at Risk, and, Christ, I could see on my own face just how much I wanted him to kiss me.
We spoke for a couple of minutes then just like that, Risk’s mouth was on mine.
I swallowed as I watched us hungrily kiss one another like it was the only chance in this life that we would ever get to taste the other. I gasped in real time when Risk picked me up and settled me on the railing and continued to kiss me something fierce. My hands were all over him, my legs were wrapped around his body and I could tell I was squeezing the hell out of him. I was shaking as I checked the upload time. Seven hours ago. We had kissed a couple of days ago but the video was just released.