“You thought you wanted more, but then once we got in the scene, you realized it was too much. Isn’t that right?
She nods.
“You used your safe word.”
She nods, and I realize she’s feeling a little embarrassed. Nope. I don’t want any of that. Not right now.
“You are so fucking brave, Odessa. Do you know that?”
She looks up at me sharply.
“Really?”
“Really. Isn’t this exactly what we’ve been talking about? Isn’t this what we’ve been focusing on? You don’t have to be fake with me, honey. You don’t have to be strong all of the time.”
“I’m not…you know…done,” she whispers. “It was just a lot of emotion all at once. A lot of pain. Usually, I like that. I crave it sometimes, Jasper. You know that. Right now, though, I need more of you. I need you. I just…Jasper?”
She looks up at me and those deep brown eyes are my undoing.
I kiss her deeply, slowly, patiently, and then I pull away because I need to be clear about what she wants before I make another move. If Odessa wants to take a break for the rest of the night, it’s totally fine. If she wants us to go slowly, well, that’s all right, too. We can do this thing on her terms and at her pace.
“Are you telling me you still want me to make love to you, buttercup?”
“No, Jasper. I want you to fuck my brains out,” she whispers sweetly. “Please.”
I just look at her for a long minute.
Is this woman for-fucking-real?
“I just don’t want to be spanked anymo
re.”
I’m happy to oblige.
I bend her back over the bed in one swift move, and then my shoes, socks, boxers, and pants are on the floor. I move toward her quickly, and without anymore hesitation, I’m inside of her.
I’ve never felt so fucking content, so at peace, so damn happy to be where I’m at.
My baby wants to be fucked hard? Well, I’ll fuck her hard and fast and completely. I dig my hands into her hips as I pull her back into me over and over. Odessa is a fucking goddess and me? I’m the luckiest damn man in the world to be the one who’s worshipping her right now.
We haven’t had an easy road. Things have been hard between us and difficult. We’ve both led complex, complicated lives, but this moment right now proves that things can work between us. If we both give ourselves to one another, if we both believe in one another, we can do this.
Together, we can be complete.
I play with Odessa’s body as I thrust deep inside of her, and soon she’s coming again. This time, she’s squeezing me hard as she orgasms, and I won’t hold back anymore. I come at the same time, releasing inside of her, marking her as my own.
That’s what she is: mine.
She’s not a woman to be possessed, but she’s my heart.
She’s everything.
She’s perfect.
She groans as she comes down from her high, and I pull her back up against me. Her back is to my front, and I reach around and gently trace circles around her nipples as she leans back into me.
“I love you, you know,” I tell her. I should have told her a long time ago, back when I first realized it. I should have called her before I left and then everything would be different. I’m the one who should have been braver, but I wasn’t.