I’ve found something – someone – outside of football who makes me feel like I can fly. She makes me feel like I can be anything I want to be, even though we both know that’s not true.
I’ve blown things with Emilia. I’m crazy about her, but I’ve blown it.
I’m not under any impression that we’re going to be able to work past what’s happened between us, but I’m going to do my best to try.
And I’m starting tonight.
Chapter 13
Emilia
“WHAT DO YOU THINK HE wants to talk about?”
Karen and Adalee are in my room watching me get ready. Adalee manages to repeat her perfect magic from the day before, and I’m swept away by how I look.
“Who knows?” I shrug.
Karen chuckles.
“You’re going to give him your v-card, aren’t you?”
“What?” I blush, squeaking it out. “I’m not a virgin.”
The girls both laugh.
“When would you have had time to have sex?”
Adalee asks. “It’s not a bad thing, love. Gavin’s very handsome, and from what I’ve heard, he’s quite the giver.”
I could have told her that.
I blush as I think about how his fingers were buried inside of me. He made me come harder than I’ve ever made myself come, and the thought is kind of sobering, to be honest.
“You’ve been a busy bee,” Karen agrees.
“I’ve had sex.”
“Nope, no lies tonight,” Adalee brushes makeup on my face and starts applying some mascara. “Tonight is your sexual debut, beautiful girl, and we’re going to make it count.”
I’m nervous.
When she puts it like that, I feel like some sort of star.
It’s like tonight is the night when everything changes.
“I’m not going to have sex with him,” I say.
Karen and Adalee exchange knowing glances.
“Who are you trying to convince here?” Karen places her hand on my shoulder and she carefully considers me. “Because we’ve known for a long time how you feel about Gavin, hon.”
“What do you mean?”
“You say he’s a bully, but you always forgive him.”
“Maybe I’m a pushover.”
“You’re not,” Adalee swipes highlighter over my skin. “You’re anything but.”