“Alright. I’ll see you in the morning,” Peter said.
“Thank you,” I said to Peter as I headed home.
I arrived home, and let Bo run in the garden for a while as I stood in the kitchen doorway and started to think more about the events that had unfolded.
Peter had explained in detail about Elijah and how he cared for me and just hadn’t wished to put me in a position where he could hurt me. All of this made sense, and it wasn’t the easiest pill to swallow.
Bo finished running around and came back into the house. I curled up on the couch and decided to call my mother.
“Hi, Mom, how you are doing?” I asked.
“Hi sweetie what’s new with you? Hey, and why are you calling so early in the day?”
“I have a lot to tell you, a lot of things have happened over the past couple of days,” I said as I gripped my cushion between my legs.
“So, what has happened that you need to tell me?”
“Well, Mom, from the start me and Elijah had been getting on really well and had spent a lot of time together, we went to the fair and to the falls. I stayed at his house a couple of nights,” I explained.
“Ah, yes, and what has happened since then that you just had to call me and tell me; you still need to tell me why you are calling so early Dear?” she said as she quizzed me.
“Well up until Saturday everything was going great, and I stayed at Elijah’s house, and on Sunday we had breakfast, and I went to Mandy’s house for the afternoon. Elijah meanwhile had gone to visit his mom, and she had explained all about his childhood, and he found out why he had been the way he was before his accident,” I explained.
“So, Dear, what happened since then? I can sense you have some more information to tell me that is slightly different to things are going well?” she asked.
“Well, I left Mandy’s house and returned home to find Elijah sat in my driveway,” I said plainly.
“And, what did he say?” she asked.
I thought about how to say it, and I knew she would give me the whole mother speech and say she had told me so. In a way, even though she would be upset things had happened the way they had, she would be happy knowing t
hat Elijah had broken things off with me, she never really liked him from the start, and now she had her prayers answered.
“Well, after he had seen his mom, he realized he hurt so many people in his life, and he couldn’t do the same to me,” I said.
“Ah, so he said he had to stop seeing you, is that it?” Mom asked.
I sensed in her voice, she was pleased in a way, that she had been right, but I knew she would just be worried about me and whatever happened she would be there to support me.
“He did, he said the only way to be sure he couldn’t hurt me was to end it so I wouldn’t become more hurt in the future if he started to act like his old self,” I explained.
“Now he has hurt you by ending it, so as not to hurt you later,” she said.
“Yes, in a nutshell, that is it. I know his decision is correct, yet it does hurt so much, and I’m distraught at what has happened. He even got me a job with Peter, his brother, so I don’t even work for him anymore, I have just been shut off completely,” I said.
“Well my dear, I did try to warn you this would happen, and you wouldn’t listen, you just plowed forward and stuck by your choice. I did say you had to make your own decisions and live by them,” she said.
I wasn’t expecting her to be so hard on me, but I could understand why she was. It hurt to hear her talk this way, but I only had myself to blame at the end of the day. I should have listened more and maybe if I had left the company when I had the chance, I wouldn’t be in this situation now.
“As I have always tried to tell you, Dear, life is not made up of fairytales, and most men are the same, they see an easy way out, and they take it, no matter who they are. Secondly, they always come up with some reason for their actions,” she said.
She laid into me good and proper, and she made me feel much worse about the situation than I already felt. I was hard on myself, and I was pissed at being dumped as any person would be, but I knew it wasn’t the end of everything, It just couldn’t be.
“The thing is, I still care for him. He’s alone and should have someone close to him right now more than ever,” I said to justify my thoughts.
“Well Dear, it looks like you will never have the chance to find out, you should just get over it and get on with your life. Over time you will see that things probably turned out for the best, and Elijah has actually done you a favor,” she said in a strong tone.
“Maybe in time I’ll look back at it and know you are right, but at the moment, I can’t bring myself to think like that,” I said.