11.34 a.m. Mabel: ‘Want to watch SpongeBob.’
11.35 a.m. Suddenly overwhelmed with exhaustion and desire to read papers in echoing silence. Just for ten minutes.
‘Mummeee! De TV is broken.’
Realized, horrified, Mabel had got hold of the remotes. I started jabbing at buttons, at which white flecks appeared, accompanied by loud crackling.
‘Snow!’ said Mabel excitedly, just as the dishwasher started beeping.
‘Mummy!’ said Billy. ‘The computer’s run out of charge.’
‘Well, plug it in again!’ I said, shoving my head into the cupboard full of wires under the telly.
‘Night!’ said Mabel as the TV screen went black, and the tumble dryer joined in the beeping.
‘This charger doesn’t work.’
‘Well, go on the Xbox!’
‘It’s not working.’
‘Maybe it’s the Internet connection.’
‘Mummy! I’ve unplugged the Airport, I can’t get it in again.’
Realizing my thermostat was veering dangerously towards red, I scampered off up the stairs saying, ‘Time to get dressed, special treat! I’ll get your clothes.’ Then ran into their bedroom and burst out, ‘I hate fucking technology. Why can’t everyone just FUCKING SHUT UP AND LET ME READ THE PAPERS?’
Suddenly, horrified, saw that the baby monitor was on! Oh God, oh God. Should have got rid of it ages ago but paranoid as single parent, fear of death, etc., etc. Ran downstairs to find Billy racked by sobs.
‘Oh, Billy, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean it. Was it the baby monitor?’
‘Nooooooooo!’ he yelled. ‘The Xbox is frozen.’
‘Mabel, did you hear Mummy in the baby monitor?’
‘No,’ she said, staring delightedly at the television. ‘De TV is mended.’
It was showing a page asking for the Virgin TV password.
‘Billy, what’s the Virgin password?’ I said.
‘Isn’t it the same as your bank card, 1066?’
‘OK, I’ll do the Xbox, you put in the password,’ I said just as the doorbell rang.
‘That password won’t work.’
‘Mummeee!’ said Mabel.
‘Shh, both of you!’ I rasped. ‘There’s SOMEONE AT THE DOOR!’
Ran up the stairs, head a mass of guilty thoughts – ‘I’m a terrible mother, there is a hole inside them left by the loss of their father which they are trying to fill with technology’ – and opened the door.
It was Jude looking glamorous, but hung-over and tearful.
‘Oh, Bridge,’ she said, falling into my arms. ‘I just can’t stand another Saturday morning on my own.’
‘What happened . . . tell Mummy . . .’ I said, then remembered Jude was a grown-up financial giant.