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I looked at my arm, which was wrinkled and pale from being holed up for the last six weeks. I had to stop myself from hitting it to get the natural coloring to return. Holding my arms up side by side, my normally strong arm looked diseased and wasted.

“How long until it looks like my hand again?” I asked the doctor.

“That’s all normal too. Now, let me see how your fingers look. ” He reached for my hand and asked me to straighten it. They were sore and underused.

“That’s great, now make a fist. ”

I did as he asked, fisting my fingers into the palm of my hand. Every movement felt foreign. And weak.

I was not used to being weak.

“It all looks good. The bones healed nice and straight. With about a week or so of rehab, Jack, you should be back on the mound, depending. ”

“Depending on what?” I asked sharply.

“No, no. ” He waved a hand in apology. “I just meant depending on how you feel, strength-wise. Everyone heals differently,” he said and I exhaled.

“Can I throw today?” I asked, determined to heal as soon as possible and get back on the mound where I belonged.

“I don’t see why not. Just take it easy. ”

I fired off a quick text to my girl.

Hand looks good. Everything healed well. Of

f to see how it feels.

My phone beeped out a response before I could put it down.

So relieved. And so thankful. Good luck, babe. I love you.

I walked into our private indoor batting cage and grabbed a ball. Palming it, I slowly wrapping my fingers around the seams in a curve-ball grip. I couldn’t hold it as tightly as before, but I wasn’t worried. One hundred percent healing would come with time. With my heart in my throat, I pulled my arm back and released the ball, not trying to pitch it, simply warming up.

It didn’t feel the same. My grip was weak and my fingers lacked the sheer strength they had a mere six weeks ago.

After winding my way back into the doc’s office, I asked him, “Should I do strength exercises first? Get my finger and hand strength back?”

“Absolutely,” he said as he tossed me a sponge-like ball. “Squeeze this. ” I did as he asked and he smiled. “Good. Now do that multiple times a day, but don’t overdo it. No more than ten reps and no more than five times each day. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but trust me. Also, make sure you flex your fingers and press them against something flat, like your table at home. ”

“All right, Doc. Thanks. ”

For the next week, I did as the doctor ordered, and each time I threw the ball at the field, I felt more and more like my old self. My hand felt good and when Coach clocked me, I threw between ninety and ninety-one consistently. Not as fast as before, but still fast. He removed me from the disabled list and told me I’d be closing out the next home series.

I couldn’t wait to throw again. Or get in my full uniform. While I was hurt, I only had to wear my sliding pants and a pullover. I wanted to be dressed in full gear again.

Sunday afternoon, the stands of Shea stadium were packed, an almost sold-out crowd, I was told. There was something about an afternoon game in the summer. Everyone wanted to be there, watching our nation’s favorite pastime.

When I took the mound, the cheers were deafening. I’d been missed. Thank God I’d been missed; I missed them too. The fans, the cheers, the stadium, the smell of the food cooking and the freshly mowed grass around me.

Stepping onto the mound, I scooted the dirt away from around the front edge with my toe, making a small divot. I kicked my cleat hard against the white rubber before turning to stand on it. It was crazy, but I’d missed the way my feet felt on the springy step.

The knowledge that I’d lost velocity on my pitches did little to soothe the anxiety that swirled inside me. I wanted to throw harder, pitch faster, get right back to where I was, but my hand wouldn’t cooperate. My fingers weren’t capable of gripping the ball as tightly as they once did. And when the baseball left my fingertips, the same force I once had, had lessened. I knew it because I felt it. From my arm all the way to my toes, my body reacted to the way my pitches had changed.

After sucking in a deep breath, I aimed at the catcher waiting for my warm-up pitch, and threw. The ball flew right down the center, a perfect fast-ball right down the pipe. My hand felt good and I wanted to keep it that way, so I stretched my fingers and threw ten more pitches before the first batter stepped up to the plate.

Aiming for the glove and agreeing to the catcher’s call for a first pitch fast-ball on the outside corner, I pulled my arm back and threw. The batter swung and missed. I glanced at the scoreboard behind me to check my speed as I walked back to the mound. The numbers nine-zero showed on the screen under the strike one count.

Shit.


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