“I love that it’s close to home,” Lux says as I follow her around the space.
“Me too. It’s the main reason I picked it. We can actually walk here if we want, but this office also gives us reserved parking as well. Plus, all the windows are amazing.”
“Do you think we need all this space, though?” Lux opens a door to another office.
“We don’t really need a whole floor, but location is key to making life easier. It’s big, but we’ll save so much time commuting, and if we want to expand at some point we could do so easily. Then we wouldn't have to up and move again or wait for something else to open in the building.” I don’t love the idea of growing, but it’s there. The whole point of breaking off from our last job was to downsize clients and work less.
“You do realize you both cringed at the idea of expanding,” Juno says with a laugh.
Had we?
“I mean, I want this to succeed, but at what price?” Lux says.
I know what she’s getting at. When she met my brother, he was work obsessed, and she doesn't want him falling back into that pattern. I have no doubt that with Lux in his life, she’ll always come before everything. I can’t help the jealousy I feel in that, but it’s the way it should be.
I’d forgiven Luca for ditching me the morning after. And I didn’t tell him that it still bums me out that I had to wake up alone the morning after I lost my virginity. I really shouldn't be pissed, because he’s gone out of his way to try and make it up to me. I missed his sweet gesture that next morning because of my anger and hurt. Still, I wonder if this will be my life with him. Will he always sneak out of bed before I wake up? I’m worried I want more than he’s willing to give, and I don’t want to be clingy. I’ve realized how much of a hold he has on me already, and what if it only gets worse?
“I agree. Maybe we can use the space for something else?” I suggest.
“Before we move on, what’s on your mind? You seemed excited about this place but hesitant at the same time.” Of course Juno catches that. “Does it have something to do with Luca?” She wiggles her eyebrows.
We’d waited for Lux and my brother to get back before we told everyone about Luca and me. They were happy for us, even when I was worried Bastian might try to act like a big brother and be protective over me. Maybe he did behind closed doors, but he told me the way I light up when Luca’s around showed him all he needed to know.
“I still can’t believe you and Luca are dating.” Lux’s excitement nearly bubbles over.
“Dating” sounds so tame for what we’re doing. Luca has brought up getting married a few times, but I put the brakes on. There’s no way I was getting engaged without my brother even knowing that I was dating anyone. They only got back from their honeymoon a few days ago. So now I’m wondering if Luca’s going to pop the question soon.
“No, it’s not about Luca exactly. I’m with Lux. I don’t want to fall back into work like Bastian and I did before. I also don’t want to hinder growth if that’s what everyone else wants. I’ll have to take a less active role if that’s the case. I know I give my brother a hard time about how work ruled his life, but the reality is, I was right there by his side,” I admit.
I’ve been enjoying the downtime because I didn’t realize how much I’d been missing out on in life. I had no friends or social life whatsoever. Now I have Luca and a growing family, and that’s where I want to focus my attention. I know better than most that time with family can be fleeting. You need to hold on to every moment, which is why I believe I worked so much before. It was a way for Bastian and me to be together all the time. He was all I had, but things have changed. So maybe it’s time to change even more.
“I agree. We can turn one of the extra rooms into a nursery and nix the whole expanding thing for now,” Lux declares, clapping her hands together. Juno and I stare at her with wide eyes. “What? You don’t like that idea?” She starts to fidget with her hair.
“Lux, what are you saying?” Juno demands, and Lux bites her lip to hide a smile.
“I was going to tell everyone at Sunday dinner, but I can’t wait any longer. I’m pregnant!” she announces.