"But..." She watches in disbelief as I head out of the room, leaving her naked and dripping. "You were going to fuck me, Master..."
"I will." I laugh at her. "When the time comes. Until then, you wait for me. Needy, wet and dripping."
"Master!" She's pouting, eyes wide, bottom lip jutting out. "I want it now!"
She stomps, but instantly stops when I approach her.
"Anything," I whisper in her ear. "Remember what you promised in exchange for my cock, toy. Any-fucking-thing."
With those words, I leave her in my office, a self-satisfied grin on my face as I walk away from her.
She fucking owes me now, and I'm going to keep her pretty little head preoccupied with the thought of me finally fucking her. No more pain but the one I give her. No more hurting but the sweet ache I let her have. She's back to being a toy now, and I'm going to make her love it.
17
Pandora
It's been days.
Days of this inbetween stage where all I can think about is the needy, wet and dripping hole between my legs.
Dexter has made sure we haven't been alone. He's spent time in his office, researching possible leads on Reign and Lily Anna, doing anything but spending time with me. And the bastard was right. The lack of attention is making me go stir-crazy. I want him. I need him. I can't live without him. Dexter and his hard, ripped body are all I can think about. Him owning me, taking me, never letting go. And yet he won't touch me. Won't even lay a finger on me. He comes to bed when I'm already asleep and wakes up before I open my eyes. I remember the phantom hugs from the middle of the night, him holding me, embracing me, gone the next morning before I wake.
Minnie doesn't understand what's happening, and I'm too ashamed to explain it to her. All I can do is stew in my own need for the man I'm supposed to marry.
I haven't forgotten about Reign. I could never. But with the overwhelming neediness that's taken over my body, I can't focus on anything but the man who owns me and the desperation he makes me feel. It's a welcome reprieve, a way to stop worrying myself sick about my son. And as much as it hurts, I have to give it to Dexter - he really did manage to distract me. All I can think about now is the pleasure of him finally burying his thick cock inside me, making me feel all the things I've almost forgotten.
But that pleasure just doesn't come.
Instead, Dex denies me day after day, sending my mind into a tailspin of emotion. And yet I don't bring it up with him.
I hide how desperate I am and how much I need him until it's almost too late. That night, we're having dinner together, with Minnie sitting at the same table as us while Anders serves us food. Now that Father has provided Dex with a dowry, we can afford to pay him again.
"I don't know if I can do this," I whisper, letting go of my fork. It clatters to the floor, the sound echoing in the room.
"What do you mean, Pandora?" Dexter asks, voice filled with held-back worry.
I look up into his eyes. I'm desperate for him to go through with his promise to fuck me, but he seems determined to make me bring it up first. My bottom lip trembles and I battle with myself on whether I should say it out loud or not. Finally, I blurt out the first thing I can think of, just so the pressure will diminish.
"I don't know if I can keep going. Maybe we should stop looking."
"For Reign?" Minnie widens her eyes, looking between the two of us. "You want to stop looking for him?"
"I don't believe she let him l-live." My voice breaks over the words and I glare at the wall so I don't have to put up with their patronizing words. Nothing will change my reality. Even Dexter's cruel plan to redirect my attention will stop working at some point... "I think we should stop looking for Lily Anna."
"No." Dex's word sounds final, filled with rage. "We will not stop looking."
"She could be dead," I say. "We're just wasting time and resources that-"
"I don't care." He stares at me with his penetrating gaze that could light my soul aflame. "I'm not going to stop looking for the girl who killed my parents. So are you really suggesting we stop looking for our son?"
I'm rendered speechless, sitting there and fidgeting on my chair. "I'm sorry, I didn't think..."
"No, you didn't," Dex grunts. "And you better start doing that before you open that pretty little mouth, Pandora. Otherwise I'll just have to occupy it in a different way."
Minnie takes a sharp breath of air, but it isn't as embarrassing as the flush that swallows my whole body. It's the first time Dex has mentioned anything sexual since the time he showed me Reign's nursery. I wanted this. I prayed for this. So why am I this fucking scared?
"Oakes called," Dexter barks after a long minute of uncomfortable silence. "He wants you back at the Estate next week, Minnie."