She made it clear she was splitting with me right along with New York.
There would be no staying together. No working it out. No opportunities to find a way.
It not only soured me on giving my heart to another person, but on making big, relationship-type promises in general.
They’re too hard to keep, and someone always, always gets hurt.
And I don’t want to hurt Ruby.
I meet Max’s gaze as we head into the café. “Something might be going on with Ruby. But distance would be a problem. What do you think? Would that be the worst idea ever?”
He gives a thoughtful sigh. “Guess it depends on how it all plays out. And you won’t know that until it’s over.”
“Truer words . . .” You can make all the plans you like; you never know how life’s going to play out until you’re looking in your rearview mirror.
We grab coffees, help Penny color in one of the pages Perk Up offers for the kids on Sundays—today, it’s a New England pastoral scene that reminds me of trips upstate, making me wonder if there will be quaint little towns like that on the West Coast—and then say goodbye.
On the way to my apartment, I call my mom, checking in to see if her Sunday yoga class killed her this week. My mom’s in great shape for her age, but I’m not sure anyone should be doing yoga in 102-degree heat.
“Hey, lady, you dead yet?” I ask when she answers.
She laughs. “No! I feel amazing. I’m telling, you, Jess, hot yoga is changing my life. It’s like I’m thirty again. You have to come with me next week, before you leave. Oh! Or better yet, let me hook you up with my teacher’s best friend in L.A. He runs a studio where the Hollywood people go. You could sign up for a month of classes, meet a sweet, beautiful, yoga-loving movie star, and give me grandbabies while I’m still young enough that people will be shocked when I say they’re my grandbabies, not my children.”
I grin. “Sounds like you’ve got it all planned out.”
“Perfect. I’ll get you his number.” She chuckles knowingly. “Even if you’re too stubborn to go to yoga, he sounds like a great guy, and you’ll need new friends.”
“Thanks for looking out for me, Mom,” I say, my chest tighter than it was a moment before. New friends are good. I like new friends.
But right now, I’m more focused on old friends . . .
And maybe becoming more than just friends.
I catch up with Mom, promise to grab lunch or dinner with her and Dad sometime next week, and then pound up the stairs to my third-floor apartment where I take a shower and get dressed to make art with Ruby in SoHo.
All the way into the city, the subway rumbles loud enough to wake the dead. But I barely notice, my mind on one thing—how is this going to play out?
To bang or not to bang? That is still the question, the one I still have no idea how to answer.
Until I see her outside Street Feet Art Supply with Corey Braxton. And then the answer becomes crystal fucking clear.
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Claire’s list continues to work its magic on my mood.
While I’m not at all interested in flirting with Corey Braxton, one of New York’s famously talented—and notoriously womanizing—graffiti artists, I do feel lighter today. So when he sidles up to me outside Street Feet while I’m waiting for Jesse, I smile.
A friendly smile.
Unsurprisingly, however, Corey shoots me his any chance I’m getting in your pants grin. “Hey, you. Where have you been hiding?”
My gut says give him a straight-faced answer, like, In physical therapy after a life-altering accident.
But last night has me feeling generous and at one with the world, so I choose kindness and honesty. “Just designing greeting cards. Planning my first big spray-paint piece. Thinking about life. You know how it goes,” I say, chatting amiably with Mr. Wham, Bam, Thank You Ma’am.
Chatting. Just chatting. I would never date Corey.