“Did you go home or did you pass out at a party?” he asks.
“Does it matter?” I’ve seen that expression before. He’s already made up his mind on me.
“No,” he answers. “They’ve expelled you.”
I utter something I’ve never said to him. “I’m sorry.” I am. For Rachel. For the fight at school. For making this horrible situation more complicated.
His face remains emotionless. “I don’t care.”
I blink and my shoulders fall a half inch. “I mean it. I’m sorry. I’ll apologize to the principal, to the guy I hurt, his family, whatever. I screwed up this time.”
He points at me. “Damn right you screwed up. But not just this time. This is one of many mistakes, and I’m done with it. I told you months ago that I drew the line at expulsion. All you had to do was stay out of fights and stay out of trouble until you graduate and you couldn’t even do that. What’s worse is that you chose to cross this line with your sister in the hospital. What is this? A cry for attention? You don’t think that your mother has enough to deal with?”
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Fine. Tell me what you want me to do and I’ll do it.”
“Your sister is in agony and from what I understand you had a hand in this nightmare.”
My eyes snap to his. “I tried to keep her from Isaiah.” That’s where I failed, and I don’t care for the reminder.
“You never bothered telling me she was seeing him in the first place! I’m her father, not you. I’m the one who makes those decisions.”
I throw my arms out to my sides. “That would have required you to be home and not on your goddamn phone!”
A muscle in his jaw jumps. I drew blood and I don’t fucking care.
“Care to tell me about the money you took from your sister?” I don’t like the way his eyes slice through me, as if he shoved a blade into my chest and he’s enjoying watching me bleed.
“I told Rachel I’d pay her back.”
“Tell me about the money you took from your sister.”
“I told you already. Gavin owed money to a bookie and I came up with the amount needed.”
“You never told me you stole that money from Rachel.”
“I didn’t steal it. I borrowed it.” Without her prior knowledge or consent, but I swear I promised to pay her back.
This is old news from days before Rachel’s accident. Not knowing I had the situation under control, Jack broke down and told Dad everything: how Ethan, Jack and I had been covering up Gavin’s gambling issues because Mom couldn’t handle the truth that her firstborn son was a gambling addict.
But when Jack cried to Daddy, he neglected to bring up how Gavin tried to discuss his problems with Dad on three separate occasions and how each time Dad blew him off over a business meeting or Mom. So when Dad wouldn’t give him the time of day, Gavin did what needed to be done: he came to me.
“Did you know Rachel was in trouble?” Dad demands. “That she lost some street race and owed money to a criminal? That it was your friends who took her to the race? That they introduced her to that life?”
“Rachel doesn’t hang out with my friends.” And I’d kick their asses if Rachel crossed their minds.
“She was at the dragway the night of the crash because you stole the money she earned to pay off the debt. She was there because you, for the millionth time, took matters into your own hands and instead of thinking for thirty seconds about the outcome of your decisions, you acted on instinct. This accident is on you.”
“It’s a lie.” Everyone knows Dad was driving from the dragway with Rachel in the passenger seat when he stalled out the engine of her car. Everyone knows the tractor trailer that struck them had lost control. “Who told you this?”
Dad steps in my direction, and if he were anybody else, I’d swear he was itching to take a swing. “Isaiah.”
The name causes my insides to boil. “He’s a liar.”
“If he’s a liar, then he’s a better one than you,” Dad snaps. “But I don’t think Isaiah is lying. He’s the one who’s been standing by your sister while you’re out getting into fights.”
I step back, the near crazy making the room spin. Yeah, I thought I failed by not keeping Rachel from Isaiah, but then my last conversation with Rachel crashes around in my brain. Fuck me. This could be true. “You don’t understand. Rachel doesn’t want to see me.”