"You've thought of everything," said Petra.
"Again," said Bean, "you could have told us this over the telephone."
"I didn't want to," said Rackham.
"The I.F. doesn't send a team like this or a man like you on an errand like this just because you didn't want to use the phone."
"We want to send you now," said Rackham.
"In case you haven't been listening to yourself," said Petra, "there's a war on."
Bean and Rackham ignored her. They just looked at each other for a long time.
And then Petra saw that Bean's eyes were welling up with tears. That didn't happen very often.
"What's happening, Bean?"
Bean shook his head. To Rackham he said, "Do you have them?"
Rackham took an envelope out of his inside jacket pocket and handed it to Bean. He opened the envelope, removed a thin sheaf of papers, and handed them to Petra.
"It's our divorce decree," said Bean.
Petra understood at once. He wasn't taking her with him. He was leaving her behind with the normal children. He was going to take the three children with the syndrome out into space with him. He wanted her to be free to remarry.
"You are my husband," she said. She tore the papers in half.
"Those are copies," said Bean. "The divorce has legal force whether you like it or not, whether you sign them or not. You're no longer a married woman."
"Why? Because you think I'm going to remarry?"
Bean ignored her. "But all the children have been certified as legitimately ours. They aren't bastards, they aren't orphans, they aren't adopted. They're the children of divorced parents, and you have custody of five of them, and I have custody of three. If the ninth one is ever found, then you'll have custody."
"That ninth one is the only reason I'm listening to this," said Petra. "Because if you stay you'll die, and if we both go, then there might be a child who..."
But she was too angry to finish. Because when Bean planned this, he couldn't have known there'd be one child missing. He'd already done this and kept it secret from her for...for...
"How long have you been planning this?" asked Petra. Tears were streaming down her face, but she kept her voice steady enough to speak.
"Since we found Ramon and we knew there were normal children," said Bean.
"It's more complicated than that," said Rackham. "Petra, I know how hard this is for you--"
"No you don't."
"Yes I damn well do," said Rackham. "I left a family behind when I went out into space on the same kind of relativistic turnaround voyage that Bean's embarking on. I divorced my wife before I went. I have her letters to me. All the anger and bitterness. And then the reconciliation. And then a long letter near the end of her life. Telling me about how she and her second husband were happy. And the children turned out well. And she still loved me. I wanted to kill myself. But I did what I had to do. So don't tell me I don't know how hard this is."
"You had no choice," said Petra. "But I could go with him. We could take all the children and--"
"Petra," said Bean. "If we had conjoined twins, we'd separate them. Even if one of them was sure to die, we'd separate them, so that at least one of them could lead a normal life."
Petra's tears were out of control now. Yes, she understood his reasoning. The children without the syndrome could have a normal life on Earth. Why should they spend their childhood confined to a starship, when they could have the normal chance of happiness?
"Why couldn't you at least let me be part of the decision?" said Petra, when she finally got control of her voice. "Why did you cut me out? Did you think I wouldn't understand?"
"I was selfish," said Bean. "I didn't want to spend our last months together arguing about it. I didn't want you to be grieving for me and Ender and Bella the whole time you were with us. I wanted to take these past few months with me when I go. It was my last wish, and I knew you'd grant it to me, but the only way I could have that wish is if you didn't know. So now, Petra, I ask you. Let me have these months without you knowing what was going to happen."
"You already have them. You stole them!"