Rohan looked out past the harbor, into the dark sea. “Is it your business?” he inquired coolly.
“It is. She’s my responsibility now that I’ve married her sister. ”
Rohan gave a hollow laugh. “Oh, my dear Charles, she is not going to want to hear that. ”
“It doesn’t signify. What do you intend?”
“I suppose I intend to marry the girl,” he said, unable to sound too cheerful about the prospect.
“Why?”
“Holy Christ, Charles, do I have to explain myself to you? Isn’t it enough that I’m doing the honorable thing?”
“It is not. If she doesn’t want to marry you she doesn’t have to. ”
Rohan turned to look at him then. “I suggest you don’t involve yourself,” he said. “Because she’s going to marry me whether she wants to or not. I don’t intend to give her a choice. ”
“Why?” Charles said again.
Rohan cursed him, snarling. “You know as well as I do, damn you. Like it or not I seem to have grown a heart. I have absolutely no use for the damned thing, but there it sits, demanding Elinor. I can’t live without her. ”
Charles clapped his hand on his old friend’s shoulder. “Welcome to the family, old boy. ”
There were times when it seemed to Elinor as if she’d been traveling forever. The crossing had been rough, and her cousin had spent the time in his bunk, casting up his accounts, while Elinor stayed on the deck, reveling in the stormy waves. They suited her dark and stormy mood. By the time they reached Dover, Marcus was little better, and he spent the first day of their journey stretched out on the seat of their capacious Berline coach, moaning softly.
Elinor sat primly on the opposite seat, her eyes lowered. She should scarcely feel pleasure in another man’s discomfort, but Marcus’s sensitive stomach served her well. She wanted no signs of affection, as he’d seemed inspired to attempt before the sea afflicted him. There was something about his diffident kiss that felt dreadfully wrong, indecently so.
She knew why, of course. It was simply because he wasn’t Rohan. The thought of lips other than his touching hers naturally felt wrong. Just one more thing she’d have to grow accustomed to.
They were to be married when they reached the village of Dunnet on the Dorset coast, the site of her father’s comfortable country estate. It had been twelve years since she was last there, yet she found she had no sentimental curiosity about returning. The world had gone from blazing color to muted black and white, and she expected it to continue that way until her death. It had been that way before she’d run afoul of the King of Hell, who’d shown her the colors of the universe.
Bastard pig spawn Rohan, she thought, glancing at her cousin as he reclined on the seat opposite her. Cousin Marcus was a well-looking man, to be sure, with taller than average height and a sturdiness that would eventually run to fat. It was a shame she found tall, elegant men with lean, golden bodies more appealing. Marcus was covered with a thick pelt of hair, so much that it peeped beneath his cuffs and tufted above his severe neck cloth, and every time she looked at it she shuddered. She had gotten over her infatuation with Rohan, she would get over that as well.
The best possible cure was a quick wedding and a quick bedding. The sooner she lay beneath him the sooner she would get past her maudlin longings for what had never been real in the first place.
By the time they arrived at the old house she was so weary she felt dazed. Marcus’s excitement had grown as they drew nearer, his lingering illness finally vanishing. “Things haven’t changed much since you’ve been here, Elinor,” he said smoothly. “As I’ve only just taken possession of the house I haven’t had time to put my own stamp on it. ” What was clearly an unpleasant thought crossed his face.
“And of course you’ll want to have some say in things. ”
“No,” she said wearily, “I won’t. I’m sure you know the place far better than I ever did. And indeed, it’s your house, not mine. ”
There was a look of deep satisfaction in his dark eyes. “Indeed, it is. But once we’re married it will be our house. ”
He didn’t sound as enthusiastic about the idea as she would have thought, but the house and estate were the least of her concerns. In fact, she doubted she’d ever give a fig for it. All she wanted was a bed and for the world to stop moving.
They arrived at dusk, and as liveried footmen helped her down she glanced up at the old house, waiting for some sense of relief, of familiarity, to lighten her bleak spirits. There was none. She looked around her, hoping to see some of the old servants including Nanny Maude’s much younger sister, Betty, among the staff that was lined up to greet them. There was no sign of her, or any of the servants she had once remembered with fondness. Everyone was a stranger, including the man she’d traveled with, and a faint shiver crossed her spine.
A moment later she was swept inside with a great fuss, taken upstairs to her mother’s old rooms, and she knew a moment’s distaste. Like the rest of the house, those rooms had been redecorated, presumably for her short-lived stepmother, who clearly had appalling taste. Everything was new and faintly gaudy, and she wondered that her father had married such a tasteless woman. The one thing that could be said for Lady Caroline—her judgment in such matters had been exquisite.
Elinor looked about her, at the rich velvet hangings that were just the wrong color, and there should have been no memories attached. Indeed, brooding over her childhood would give her welcome respite from the current subject of her dark and longing thoughts. The maid who came to wait on her was young and nervous, and once Elinor had washed some of the travel dust from her, she rejected the notion of napping. She’d been trapped in that coach for too long. She needed to stretch her legs, to walk around the grounds and see if those too had changed as dramatically.
Author: Anne Stuart
Here at least she found familiar ground. She walked past the winter-dead orchards, the spring gardens that were beginning to show just the barest tip of buds reaching through the ground. She remembered playing with Lydia in better times, well out of sight or attention of their parents, and she knew a sudden fierce longing for her sister, so powerful she wanted to weep. She should be happy—her sister was by now safely Madame De Giverney, she thought as her mood began to quickly deteriorate. She’d married that pompous, self-satisfied idiot and it was Elinor’s fault; all this was her fault, and she’d ruined her sister’s life as badly as she had her own.
She fought back the tears. Tears were a waste of time, and in no short order she’d be a married woman as well, mistress of the household she thought she’d left behind forever. She had pined for England, secretly, for the house and grounds, for the life that was gone forever. It now seemed as hollow as her dreams.
She let herself back into the house by a side door she’d used when she was younger. Neither the new nor the old Baron Tolliver lived with the formality evinced by the Viscount Rohan. There were no footmen stationed at each door, ready to assist. In fact, the house seemed oddly understaffed, she thought as she wandered through the shadowy, deserted hallway.