“Max, yes. Yes. Yes!”
“Shit. Holy fuck, what have you done to me?”
“I love you. I love you so much. I’m so close. Max, please. Please. Please.”
I grunted. “Just. Like. That.”
I slammed myself against her as my lips fell to hers. I felt her body pulling me in. Massaging me to my end as goosebumps scattered along my body. I unraveled her hands from my neck, rutting against her as I threaded our fingers together. I pinned her hands above her head, opening her up to me. Kissing down her neck. Marking her skin. Sucking in patches and nibbling on them until nothing was left but dark red marks.
“I’m coming,” she choked out.
And when her walls clamped me in their vise grip, I met my end with her.
Chanting how much I loved her as it fell effortlessly from my lips.
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Dani
One, two, three. Breathe!
One, two, three. Breathe!
Underwater. Turn. Push. Mermaid.
One, two, three. Breathe!
I felt the water gracing my skin as I soared through the pool. I felt the waterproof bandaging from the student’s health office on campus protesting my every move. I knew I couldn't be in the water. I knew I shouldn’t have been swimming. But damn it, I couldn't help myself.
One, two, three. Breathe!
One, two, three. Breathe!
I needed to blow off steam. I needed to center myself. Because after blowing off classes yesterday and the day before, I was feeling a bit overwhelmed. I didn’t want to let my parents down. I didn’t want them to throw away all this money on my education. But I also didn’t want to waste their time and their hope on something I wasn’t even sure I wanted any longer.
One, two, three. Breathe!
One, two, three. Breathe!
I drew in deep breaths. I kept checking in with my waterproof wrapping. Even though plastic wrap was a bad idea, I had layers of it wrapped around my leg over the gauze, with some waterproof stuff on top that the doctor at the student’s office gave me. Three layers between it and the water sloshing against my skin. That was enough to protect it, right?
I really hoped so.
One, two, three. Breathe!
One, two, three. Breathe!
I touched my hand against the side of the pool and switched strokes. I threw myself onto my back, kicking and stroking as I stared up at the ceiling. With my hair underneath a rubber cap and my goggles much too tight on my face, I heaved for air. I felt my body finally winding down. After a sleepless night of nothing but studying, catching up, and reading, I needed a way to exert all of this nervous energy. I felt myself turning into something new. Something greater. Something I knew my parents wouldn’t approve of.
And finally showing that to them made me sick to my stomach.
Max had turned my life upside down in the best way possible. I’d never felt so in tune with myself. Ever. I felt like I was just getting to know myself. My whole self. And it felt fantastic. The part of me that Max helped me to open up felt more natural than anything I’d ever done with my life up until this point. I’d never been able to look at something and know so confidently that I wanted it. That I needed it.
Every time I looked at Max, I felt that way.
Your parents are going to kill you for it.
I stumbled with my turn under th