“Christ, let’s just end this conversation,” Ryodan said tightly. “It’s going nowhere.”
“Let’s,” Barrons agreed.
“Let’s not,” I said. “How did it end with you and Dani?” I pressed, worried for her.
“I left, that’s how the fuck it ended. I got out of there as fast as I could.”
“So, you don’t know where she went?” I needed to find her. Talk to her. See if I could help with her bruised…pride or feelings or whatever she was going through now. I said to Barrons, “I’m going to sift to her and see how she is.”
Ryodan stiffened, sucking in a harsh breath. “Ah, fuck! Don’t,” he growled, turning his back to me, hands fisting at his sides.
“Don’t tell me what to—”
“Don’t sift to her. Your timing would be terrible.”
I stared at him. His back was ramrod straight and he shuddered. He turned and shot Barrons an unreadable look crammed so full of an unfathomable conversation and I desperately wanted an interpretation.
Barrons went still, closed his eyes and rubbed them.
“What’s going on?” I said softly.
Without opening his eyes, Barrons murmured, “Dani is having sex.”
My gaze whipped back to Ryodan. “You can feel that because of the brand on her neck?”
Ryodan said nothing, just stood there like he’d been turned to stone, nostrils flaring, eyes sparking crimson. His fangs extended, protruding from his mouth.
My gaze shot back to Barrons, and I was just about to speak when he said to Ryodan, “You knew when you tattooed her what it would do to you. You knew the price.”
“What price?” I demanded.
“She went straight from me to him,” Ryodan said nearly inaudibly.
“Him, who?’ I practically shouted.
“Her fucking kid genius,” he hissed.
I couldn’t help but smile. She was with Dancer. That was the epic I’d wanted for the woman she’d started to become. For Dani “the Mega” O’Malley epic could only be the one thing she’d never had: normal. Then my heart sank as I remembered the condition of Dancer’s heart. I got lost in my thoughts a moment, hoping she didn’t…well, surely she wouldn’t be too…vigorous. Dani was super strong, she vibrated when she got excited. Oh, I really needed to stop thinking about this. I shook my head to scatter images and said to Ryodan, “You did the right thing. You should never have been her first.”
He looked at me like I was absolutely insane. “Of course I shouldn’t.” Then his face hardened and something I couldn’t define stirred in his ancient eyes. “I’m going to be her last.”
Without another word, Ryodan shifted into the beast and was gone.
DELETED SCENE FROM HIGH VOLTAGE:
Before I began writing the novel, I needed to see the decision Ryodan made to leave, to fully understand the emotion and motives behind it. I wrote this scene between him and Barrons to flesh it out in my mind…
“What are you waiting for?” Ryodan demanded.
Jericho Barrons paced the flagstones with such violence, his boots kicked up stone dust with each step. “I don’t think this is a good idea.”
Ryodan said coolly, “I didn’t ask you to think. Just do it.”
“And if we need you?” Barrons whirled on him so sharply that the fabric of his long coat cracked like a whip.
“It’s five years.” The corner of Ryodan’s mouth lifted in a mocking smile. “Surely you can muddle through without me for so short a time. In Faery with Mac, it may pass as a mere month or two for you.” Time crawled in that liminal place where the ancient Fae held formal court.
“And if something goes wrong? You haven’t thought this through,” Barrons snarled.