I allowed myself to get lost in his kiss, and barely registered that I was now lying down, and Alec was on top of me, pressing me down into our mattress. I was so wrapped up in him that I also didn't hear our bedroom door open.
“What are you both—oh, for fuck's sake! Can you not wait until later?”
I pulled away from Alec's mouth and screeched.
I wasn't naked and neither was Alec, but I felt like we were because the moment was personal and intimate.
Alec pressed his forehead into the space of mattress next to my head.
“Kane,” he growled. “Go. Away.”
“No,” Kane retorted. “You woke me up to help pack your shit, so leave your girl alone and come help.”
Alec snarled, “I'll kill you if you don't walk away.”
“And I'll sit on you if you don't leave this room,” Kane snapped back.
I couldn't help it, I laughed.
“Later,” Alec murmured in my ear then kissed my cheek.
I held onto his arms. “Promise?” I murmured back as he stood up and pulled me to my feet.
He growled down at me and angled his face to kiss me again, but Kane was there to put a stop to that too.
“Don't even think about it.”
Alec whimpered, “I hate you so much.”
I snorted.
He turned then and dove on Kane who yelped, “I'm sick! You can't hit me.”
I cackled as I watched Alec bring Kane to the ground and pin him.
“You fat bastard!” Kane snapped. “Get off me!”
Alec slapped Kane's face and the look of shock on his face sent me into a fit of laughter.
“You... you slapped me,” Kane said.
He blinked at Alec in disbelief.
“You cock blocked me,” Alec replied. “Be happy it's nothing harder.”
Kane continued to blink, then a fleeting moment later his shock evaporated and rage twisted his handsome face. I felt my jaw drop open when Kane lifted his hands to Alec’s arms and flipped him off his body. Kane quickly rolled to the side and slammed Alec onto his back and got in his face.
“Hit me now,” he growled.
I was stunned to silence.
“How did you do that?” I asked Kane, but he was too busy to answer me.
Alec grunted in Kane's hold. “You motherfucker... sick my ass.”
I didn't intervene—they attacked each other at random all the time so I knew it was nothing serious. The first time Nico did it to Alec though I just about had a heart attack. I took off my shoe and threw it at Nico's head to stop him. The brothers still teased me about it to this day.
“Try to slap me again,” Kane repeated.
Alec grunted, spewed curses then grunted some more.
“I can't!” he hissed.
“Exactly,” Kane growled. “Remember that.”
He got up off him, then got to his feet and pulled Alec up with him.
“You're a dick!” Alec said and brushed his clothes off.
Kane grinned at him. “I know, now come on.”
They left the room shoving and cursing at one another and it made me smile.
I loved the bond the brothers had—it was beautiful.
It was odd, and sometimes scary with how intense it was, but beautiful none-the-less.
I shook my head as they walked out of the room then snorted as I walked over to my dresser and heard Kane shout at Alec to get away from me. He laughed at Kane and ran back into our room.
“I forgot to say hello to her, give me a second.”
I melted.
He was too cute.
“Hello Alec,” I chuckled.
He walked up behind me. “Hello, Kitten.”
“How many boxes did you get with the van?” I asked.
He snorted and kissed the back of my head. “Nice to see you too, Kitten. I missed you as well.”
Missed me?
He was gone for about an hour.
I rolled my eyes. “Hi, I missed you too... How many boxes did you get?”
Alec laughed and playfully smacked my behind. “Twenty. My brothers are folding them and taping them now. They gave them to me flat and because they were free I didn't wanna complain.”
I smiled, but said nothing as I thought for the millionth time about moving.
“Hey,” Alec murmured in my ear. “Is everything okay?”
No, not at all.
“Yeah... I'm just stressed with the move,” I replied, playing it off like it was nothing.
Alec placed his hands on my arms and gently rubbed up and down. “Are you sure that's all?”
I nodded my head.
“Keela,” Alec began. “Talk to me, what's wrong?”
Everything.
“Nothin', I'm fine,” I assured him.
His silence spoke volumes, so I decided to give him a little piece of what I was thinking.
“I've just never moved into a house with another person before, especially not another person who is my fiancé. It's sinkin' in that we're for real. I was convinced for a long time that you wantin' me was some kind of fluke. I was expectin' you to realise that you could have anyone, so why settle for me? Then you'd up and walk out.”
Alec turned me to face him and leaned his head down so he could press his forehead against mine. “I don't know what else I can do to make you realise you're it for me. I don't see anyone but you. You're my life, Keela. I wish you knew just how much I love you and how lucky I am that you picked me. You don't know how beautiful you are, and I hope you never realise it because if you do, you'll realise you can do better than my sorry ass, then you'll up and leave me.”
Yeah, right.
“Stop it,” I mumbled and tried to pull back.
“No,” Alec stated firmly and held me still. “You are beautiful. You are perfect to me. You are my life. You are never going to convince me that I am worthy of you. Kitten, I love you so much it hurts. Please realise that.”
Oh, Christ.
I was about to cry. Again.
I quickly lifted my hands to my face and covered it completely.
“I hate you!” I said then burst into tears.
I hated everything.
I had this unbelievably beautiful person both inside and out, and he wanted me by his side for life, yet here I was doubting whether or not we were moving too fast. I wanted to be with Alec for the rest of my life, I swear I did... so why the hell did everything we were doing feel like it was too fast?