Now he was a man, and we both had a lot more confidence. Madoc was good. Very good. I felt guilty that I wanted more of him.
And his piercing? Holy hell.
I looked away and sat up, pushing him off me. “No, Madoc. I didn’t want to leave.”
He backed up, but I could feel his eyes on me. I knelt down and retrieved my soaked clothes and then turned away, using my tank top to clean off my stomach.
“How did they find out?”
“What does it matter?” I said softly. “We were too young. What we were doing was wrong. They knew it. Sending me away was for the best.”
I tried wiggling back into my underwear and shorts, but they were so cold from the rain that still poured down on us. A shiver shot down my arms.
“But they lied to me.” He stood there, naked. “All these years I thought—”
“We survived, Madoc,” I interrupted, and avoided his eyes as I put on my bra. “I moved on, and so did you, right?”
• • •
I thought for sure it would have taken me a zillion years to pass out that night, but I fell asleep within seconds. I didn’t even remember lying in bed, trying to get myself to relax. After dealing with Madoc, Addie, the party, and then the “rain,” I’d closed my eyes and woken up in pretty much the same position I fell asleep in.
But as soon as I opened my eyes, I was bombarded with thought after thought, worry after worry, all charging like a storm of elephants through my head.
I sucked in a breath. Shit. I slept with Madoc!
That’s okay. It was part of the plan.
But you liked it. No, I loved it.
That’s okay. You haven’t had sex in two years. You were horny.
You told Madoc that the parents lied?
Okay, so I didn’t want him to believe that I would have said anything like that. I shouldn’t have cared. A minor hiccup that upset nothing in the overall plan. Relax.
But he’ll confront his dad! His dad will come home. . . .
So? I want Mr. Caruthers home. My plan would come to fruition in a few days anyway.
Everything was on schedule.
I inhaled a cool breath and exhaled a shaky one.
So why wasn’t I happy?
The first year I’d spent away I was too confused—too numb—to make sense out of everything that had happened, much less get my ducks in a row. But for the past year all I’d fantasized about was seeking my revenge and seeing them hurt. Each one of them. Seeing their worlds turned upside down like mine had been.
But now my mind just kept traveling back to last night.
How Madoc’s lips had felt on my neck. How he looked at every inch of my body like he was seeing me for the first time. How much his hot eyes and possessive hands had made me feel like he wanted me.
He might be a spoiled brat and a self-absorbed ass**le, but he’d blown my mind.
I needed to remember that just because someone was good in bed didn’t mean anything beyond that.
This was a game to Madoc—but it was a war to me.
I rolled over and sat up, swinging my legs off the edge of the bed, but then I immediately dropped my head and blew out a breath.
Damn.
My insides felt stretched, and the muscles below my belly were sore. I was sore everywhere.
Standing up, I tiptoed on wobbly legs across my room and cracked the door open. I heard a vacuum cleaner’s vroom somewhere in the house and knew Addie was awake. Slipping out my door, I sprinted across the hall to the bathroom.
Madoc’s bedroom had a bathroom. Not mine. I didn’t rate high enough.
“You’re up!” a loud voice hollered. “Awesome for me.”
I twisted to my left and saw Madoc closing his bedroom door and running straight for me.
A knot lodged in my throat. What the—
He charged at me like a linebacker, swooped me up by the waist, and threw me over his shoulder.
“Madoc! Put me down!”
“Shhh . . .” He pushed us through the bathroom door, kicked it shut and planted my ass on the bathroom counter.
“Madoc—”
But I was cut off. He snatched up my lips, wrapping his strong arms around me and nearly suffocating me with how much pressure he was putting on my mouth. Every time he took a breath, I did the same, because he came back in for more within a heartbeat. His lips moved over mine, fast and urgent, needy and ready. Both of his hands pushed up under my T-shirt, kneading my br**sts, and I couldn’t help myself. My hands slid down his black pajama pants, grabbing his perfectly smooth ass and pulling him in between my legs.
“I’m going to apologize for my lack of coolness right now,” he gasped out, trying to yank my shirt over my head, but I kept pulling it back down. “I’m hornier than a motherfucker.”
“Oh, is it a morning thing?” I crossed my arms over my chest to keep my shirt down.
“Morning?” He started jabbing me in the stomach, tickling me to get my arms to release the shirt. “I’ve been up all f**king night torturing myself. I should never have told you to lock your door last night.”
He’d walked me to my room last night, ordering me to lock my door. Apparently, he didn’t always know everyone who partied at his house, and he wasn’t sure who all of the people were passed out around the place. I had only seen three bodies when I’d walked through the house, but there could’ve been more.
“You were trying to protect me from ra**sts,” I pointed out, biting my lip to keep myself from giggling.
“Yeah, slick move that was.” He smiled down at me, jabbing me continually in the stomach. “I couldn’t get at you, either.”